This is about Love and me and how I view Love differently now.
I was a different person seven years ago, and far way different 10 to 15 years ago. But the essence of who I Am is the same. Deep inside I could feel the same Me. That makes me realised that I Am the same Love. The only different now is I let Love express with freedom.
I used to be afraid to say ‘I Love You’ because I thought ‘I Love You’ means a commitment between two people. I hardly say it to my late dad. I felt awkward. Few hours before he passed away, he stared at me. That look was different, and it came from deep inside of him. I stared at him, but I didn’t even say ‘I Love You‘. It was Love looking at Love, but I never learn to say it.
That Awkwardness Shouldn’t Happen to My Mother.
I didn’t do it consciously. I just felt the need to express love to her without fear being judged (mostly by myself…didn’t we all judge ourselves?). So I said a lot of Love to my late mom years before she passed away. Nights after nights of “Good night Mom, I Love You”, that Love changed her and me. Few days before she passed away, we spoke only Love. She said, “I Miss You”. That was her last words and that was good enough to keep me going knowing she is loved.
And that was a long time ago. And I never stop learning to Love even though I had to go through moments of Tough Love. I guess I’m lucky because Universe sent me people who have already tasted the higher Love to assist me in discovering the essence of Love I had within me.
It took seven years to be our New Self entirely, so they said.
And as I live Love, I realised that Love can be so different, and it comes in so many forms. First I felt is about me and my feeling. Then Love goes deeper into my cells. It brought up all kind of pain so I could Love my body, my being and my Soul. Then Love appeared in the sounds of birds, in the movement of winds, in the colours of plants, in the silence of the night. Now I feel it in every breath. And it is still unfolding to me with wonders and beauty.
And whatever that I’m describing Love through my experiences can only be so limited because I had put words on it. So please don’t take everything I wrote here as ‘that’s all about Love‘. Love is more than the words I shared with you. Nevertheless, I hope the sharing could expand a little bit of our awareness towards Love.
It feels higher. It is more fluid, gentle and peace. I remember looking into someone’s eyes and I felt suspended between knowing and unknowing. That’s Love recognising Love. It is for Self, everyone and everything. I now could easily say I Love You to anyone who needs it. I love saying it to animals, to plants…to the Moon, the Stars, the Sun…to anything. I said it to the pain I felt. Commitment doesn’t bother me anymore because this Love has no sensation of lust, ownership, guilt or shame.
Just so you know, Love heals! It healed me. It can heal you. But first, you have to allow yourself to be Loved; by YOU, by the Universe, by anyone and anything without judgement. Let go that old belief about I Love You. Accept it unconditionally. And never give up on Love.
Then learn to Love yourself. Learn to be YOU. Love is Your Self. Be that Love and spread it to the world.
Good night Beautiful Souls. It’s 11.50pm in the other side of the world.
I Love You, whoever you are, wherever you are!