Human Design – Mundane Life.

I met a wise man who told me that my life will never be boring. He said that my environment is surrounded by emotional frequency; mostly projection of dramas, sexual, passion, traumas, pain and inner spirit. Then he said that in this mundane life is where my spirituality will thrive. Here, within ordinary life is where I live extraordinarily.

He is right. 

I recognised the environment and the dramas. I know I can’t escape the environment, but I certainly can be present and train my brain to observe beyond the surface. From there, I learn many things about people’s emotion; their passion and emotional outburst, their pain and hope, their nervousness and calmness. I feel all these through my body.

I used to be tossed around by people’s emotions. Back in high school, a friend of mine told me that my mood was like a bomb. I carried that from a child to my adulthood. Imagine living in an environment that filled with emotional frequency and everything that comes with it flow through your system and you amplify it as an empath. I know I was not an easy person to deal with, emotionally.

To those who have dealt with me and they feel hurt, my sincere apology for the pain I caused and the ignorance.

Ever since I learned about my environment and living in it as an empath, the knowing frees me from all the emotional burden that I carried. Throughout the years, I learn to be present and allow people’s emotions flow through me without attachment. I’m still releasing all the past wound too. I hope it heals, not just me but everyone else.

I am eternally Grateful for this moment. In this silence and solitude mundane life, I feel peaceful.

And let’s acknowledge that if emotions can bring us pain, it can also bring us Peace.

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Hold Your Horses! Is 1st Jan Really the New Year?

What are you doing today? Getting ready to face 2019? Hold your horses!

Instead of looking forward to new goals, how about reflecting the cycle of 2018. And this is the right moment to do so.

Technically, we are still in the 2018 Quarter of Mutation. In the other word, we are still going through some transformation until we reach a limitation (Gate 60). 2019 cycle will begin when the Sun leaves Gate 60.6 and enters Gate 41.1 (approx on 22nd Jan 2019)In Gate 41 where we begin our human experiential way.

This may seem small or irrelevant to you but ponder on this.

Do you realize how difficult it gets when you start your journey towards your goals on 1st Jan? For example, how many new years do you try to diet or exercise but end up failing? The reason is that on 1st Jan, we are influenced by the pressure to know our purpose. The pressure also comes through provocation and tension (Gate 38 – Gate 39). You certainly do not want to start anything new through tension.

You may also feel melancholy for NOT knowing your purpose. This is the reason why we all end up rushing towards 2019, thinking that this is the way we get to our purposes. If you do feel this rushing energy to live your purposes; Reflect and Patience is the key.

We still have four transit Gates to go (38, 54, 61 and 60 – approx 22 days) before we can begin something new. Meantime, enjoy the remaining cycle of mutation and transformation.

This is me today. I was on the bed watching Netflix and I thought “my fingers need some shoes!” :D. I guess I’m gonna kickstarting my journey towards 2019 with some glam! LOL…

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The Unexpected Birthday.

Photo taken at The Coffee Bean, Empire Subang.

This is how I spent my 40th birthday. These people are strangers to me (except Joe) and yet Universe arranged us to meet, all for the same reason; spreading Human Design in Malaysia.

The lady (Ms. Koh) in white, contacted me yesterday, and invited me to meet up. Both of us study Human Design with IHDS (International Human Design School) and she did her’s in Taiwan. Both of us are from Penang too (go penangites)! And here’s the surprise… both of us are Right Angle Cross of Service; which means our purposes are almost similar (we are different in quarter). She’s being 4/6 and I’m a 2/4, we bond through similarity. I admire her courage when she responded to Human Design and bring the service to others.

Then came along her friends, each with their interests to bring Human Design to a wider audience.

I spent most of my time observing others and also reflecting how being 40 feels like. It is not about the numbers but the trajectory of life path and changes begin around 40s. I already feel the different today.

This is not how I think I will spend my birthday. What I experienced today is beyond what I have in mind. Here’s a lesson I picked up today. When our purpose flow through us, we can’t ignore the calling. I’ve seen it in me. I’ve seen it in these people.

Anyway, thank you to all my family and friends who wishes me a wonderful birthday. Love all of you!

Looking forward to more fabulous forty and fulfilling life!

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Staring at Death.

I am amazed by how my mind sees Life and Death co-exist in one space. The mind thinks Life and Death are separated. It’s duality, that’s how our minds see Life. Beyond the mind, within our own Spirit, we know that Death is a process within Life. Death is mutation and transformation. An end of a cycle is a beginning of a cycle. Life is the whole cycle and death is a point within the cycle.

Look at the trees. There are part of the branches broken and died but it gives space for new leaves to grow. The dead branches are the point of transformation. The aliveness of Life and its cycle is still within everything that you see in the picture.

I always wonder about my own death. What, when and how the point will be. What’s the new beginning that my end will bring to me and to the world?

By the way, I have Gate 28.6 in unconscious Mars (lessons and opportunity for growth on a personal level). Fear of Death is part of the process that helps me to live my purpose. Funny because now I begin to realize why I always stare at death 🙂

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What is Love?

I asked many people about Love. What is Love to them?

Is Love a pain? Is Love a desire?

What if Love is everything you experience?

What if Love is You?

The mind may not know what is Love. If you put Love in front of you, the mind will seek the polarity of Love. It will look at the opposite of Love; the unloved. The mind needs to know the duality of everything.

Hence, when you think of Love, you will also think of unlove. That is why some people think Love is complicated especially if they have a compulsive mind that constantly swings between two polarities.

Love is simple. It really is. What’s complicated is our compulsive mind that trying to understand Love.

If you want to know what Love is, go beyond your thinking. Follow your breathing, your body, your feeling, your sensation, your senses, your Soul.

Love begin within YOU.

Observe your experiences. It can tell you many things about Love.

By the way, this is Love. Scones.

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Peace and Stillness.

These are the feelings, moments and reflections I experienced today.

Spontaneous.

Monotonous.

Quiet.

Stillness.

Gift.

Retreat.

Nap.

Blue.

Waiting.

Observing.

Worry.

Provocation.

Honour.

Gratitude.

Reflect your day is a simple exercise that you can do in a daily basis.

It could help you to see your life in the bigger picture.

The photo represents Peace and Stillness. 

It is a gift for you; whoever you are, wherever you are.

Breathe and be Conscious.

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The Presence of the Subtle Power.

“The Subtle Power moves all things and has no name.” This is the excerpt from the book Power vs Force.

One thing that I realised is if we pay attention to our body, and beyond the mental thinking, we could feel there is aliveness moving through us and aliveness in everything.

Everything is alive even without a name. The moment we named it, we construct and conceptualize it into an object that represents something in this Universe. Name is important to establish recognition. However, at the same times, the mind most likely attaches to the names and its story. The mind is conditioned based on what it knows, and it usually creates some form of resistance towards what IS. Without awareness to realise the attachment to names, we give ourselves limitation to experience aliveness in everything.

Everything has its aliveness and the aliveness comes from the Subtle Power. Everything you can see, hear, touch, smell, taste and feel has a Subtle Power in it.

Love is aliveness. Fear is aliveness too. Peace is aliveness. So do Anger, Grief, Anxiety and Sadness. The chair that you sit on has its aliveness. The eyes that you are staring at, has its aliveness. All animate and inanimate object is alive at some point where the mind can’t think of. You can try to feel the presence without resisting the aliveness. First, try to feel the aliveness in your body because it all begins with your body.

And this is what we are here to experience; to witness the presence of the Subtle Power; whatever It means to you.

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Life is A Joke.

Life is a series of jokes. The moment I think the island welcomes me, it gave me hard times… three times yesterday and I had my knee injured again. My thought is, either the environment is not right for me or my routine has changed.

A friend, Stacey, suggested I spent a time in a kitchen; dry kitchen like in a bakery and let dryness heals me, some place like Subway. It sounds weird but it’s not. This is about right frequency and folks in Human Designwould probably relate to this. I’m a Dry Kitchen environment. The best environment for me is low humidity and a place that is about transformation.

What I recognised is my frequency and body doesn’t do well with water (island is surrounded by water) and high humidity drains my body. Growing up in this island, I dealt with numbers of illnesses and pain. It didn’t make sense until I understand the energy of my body. Takes me nearly 40 years to see my truth! LOL!

Now, I have not yet understand my PHS entirely, so whatever I’m expressing here is based on my experiences. And whatever it is, I love this Island and I respected her beingness.

Well, I didn’t go to the Subway. Instead we choose The Coffee Bean for our brunch.

And this is a Life looking at the jokes from a big window.

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(I am still on my vacation, just doing some short posting for this few days).

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Finally, I Met a Manifestor Who I Could Love.

Recently I’ve met a client who is a Manifestor. Our conversation started via WhatsApp, where she asked if she could have a session with me. I don’t know her energy type at the time but there is something repelled me away.

Now, as usual, the mind said “This client is tough. Not for you”. And as usual, my body says otherwise. I navigated the conversation in the best way I can and we decided to meet.

Less than a week later, we met at the Coffee Bean. The moment I saw her, I could feel a deep sense of Unconditional Love emerged in me and that Love knows her. It is not pity kind of love. She is having a tough journey at this moment and I’m not in a place to describe what she is going through. What I want to share is why do I feel so much Love towards this human being.

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What is a Manifestor?

First, let’s talk about Manifestor. There are four types of energy and Aura in the human being. Each type of Aura communicates differently with each other.

Manifestor’s aura communicates its impact on everyone around them. They have a very powerful aura that could have a huge impact on the world. Often, Manifestor doesn’t know their power and they don’t know how to use it wisely. George W.Bush is a Manifestor. The moment he decided to send US Army to Iraq and started a war, the impact lasted till today. Same goes for Hitler.

Now you know why I felt repelled in the first place.

From the perspective of other types, Manifestor’s Aura is not that friendly. It is not negative or bad. They are born in that way to protect their independence and power. Manifestor Aura protects them with the quality of*** closed and repelling aura***. Then again, their aura do that when the body feels the need to protect their power. Manifestor often has no clue how their Aura works.

When Manifestor meets Projector:

In the world where we don’t know our Aura and energy, and we don’t know how it works; Projectors often have a hard time in the presence of Manifestor. For Projector, their aura has a power to penetrate others in order to guide them. On the other hand, Manifestor has a closed Aura :).

Projector: Knock, knock! Let me in!
Manifestor: Go away!

However, I don’t feel that with this woman. I do feel her closed Aura but I don’t feel dismissed or rejected. My aura doesn’t feel that. Instead, I feel so much Universal Love towards her. Then I looked at her chart.

Unconditional Love; the explanation with Human Design.

First thing I noticed was. I’m in her fractal. I’m one of the people she is destined to meet. Human Design can show you who are the right people in your environment. So I told her; we are destined to meet each other.

For me, it feels like meeting a long-lost sister!

Second; I’m all about living life with Vitality, Joyfulness and Peace. Manifestor who awaken to their true self is the ambassador of Peace in this Universe. If they are not awakened, Manifestor is the figure of anger (and anger could create war. See the connection?)

Third; if I don’t know how my Aura works and I don’t trust how my Aura communicates for me, I won’t be meeting her and people who are correct for me. Anyway, our session was filled with Peace and Love (at least I felt it that way.)

The Beauty Of Non-Verbal Communication:

In Human Design, we are taught about non-verbal communication where our Aura does the talking for us. I’ve been experimenting with the accuracy of Human Design and I noticed how my communication improves over the time. My Aura speaks on behalf of me most of the time. It even attracts great people around the world to connect with me. And when these people connected with me, I get to live my purposes. It is magical to see the changes. I was once invisible and now, I work with people all around the world. My voice changed too. The vibration has so much power in it.

All of this happened because I understand my body, my aura, my mind and my Soul. Human Design just happens to give me a logical tool and knowledge for me to explore my Inner Power.

If you want to change your Life without changing who you are; give Human Design a try.

Four-Types-The-Manifestor-To-Live-a-Life-with-Peace-Ra-Uru-Hu-Human-Design-System.pngIf you are a Manifestor, let’s find out how to be the ambassador of Peace and not Anger.
If you are a Generator or Manifesting Generator, do you want to discover how to shift your frequency from frustration to satisfaction?
If you are a Projector, this is an invitation for you to know how to be successful in Life.
If you are a Reflector, come and join us and experience the wonder of surprises Life has for you.

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By the way;

Human Design is not a belief system, non-religion or not a personality test. It is a logical tool that tells you everything about yourself from your energy, aura to your diet and what is the best place to live your purposes. Human Design also provides an awakening program that awakens the power within your genes. I’m going to coach the awakening workshop too.

If you interested, I’m happy to help you to know Your True Self in an interactive discussion.

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What’s Behind Emotional Eating?

There is Light and Darkness in everything.

Yesterday morning I told a friend that I feel the need to eat, not because I’m hungry but because I feel there is an emotional need to eat. In the simple terms, we call it Emotional Eating.

I experienced this need from time to time and yesterday’s experience was difference. I noticed that the body doesn’t really want to eat; but the emotions crave for all sort of food that I can think of. At one point, I realise that the body was feeling hungry, but it just wants to settle for a simple food. The mind, which react as a spoke-person to the emotions, thinks I need something super delicious to feed my stomach. As an Undefined Emotion person, this is how my Not-Self avoiding confrontation too.

So, I stepped back and see where this feeling is coming from. There were subtle hatred, dislikes and dissatisfaction that associates with others, that I can’t get what I want on my terms (timing mostly), that I have everything I need at that moment, but it wasn’t enough. And these related to the dissatisfaction and it is some form of inner resistance towards Life.

Between feeling all this and that, there was a void behind all these. The void leads me to understand something; I woke up to a feeling that I don’t know what to do today even though I have lists of things that I need to do. The feeling that there is no flow to keep the energy moving that is torturing to the mind and therefore, set the emotions to feel discomfort.

This is what we do. Instead of sitting with this void and find out what it is, most of the time we have urges to fill the void with something (food, sex etc).

It is ridiculous as it seems, but this is what we all do from time to time and to an extend that we become numb to our emotions.

Instead of believing that I need to go out there and find myself with super delicious food, I let my Awareness figure out where this lead me to. I simply come to these conclusions:

Acknowledge What You Are Feeling.

The dissatisfaction that I feel is real. It probably a dormant feeling that hidden deep inside of me. Since it came up to the surface, maybe it’s time to sit with these feelings and see if it wants to heal.

What the Void Really Is?

The feeling of void and ‘no-flow’ is a classic sign of an Individual Energy Stream (Human Design related). In individual energy, the energy flow moves in pulses. There are days we feel like nothing can be done and there are days, it is moving like a lighting. It is the period of ‘no-flow’ that makes Life seems stagnant and in a void.

The truth is, there is creativity and awareness are fertilising through the process. We don’t see the seed become alive until it grows out of the soil as a sprout, do we? That doesn’t mean the seed is dead. It is the same thing with an Individual energy.

I have one stream of individual and experiencing a Channel of Mutation (60-3) in my Solar Return. I’m pretty much have to learn to work according to the flow. From my experiences, I produced creativity after a period of stagnation.

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The Rise of Human Spirit Consciousness.

We are in the era where the frequency of the Universe is setting us to increase our Spirit Consciousness and Emotional Awareness. The downside of this frequency is emotional eating, which reside in Gate 55 – The Gate of Spirit (Human Design). And Gate 55 is an individual energy that has fear of Emptiness. That’s the void that I feel. Emptiness over something.

If you look at the pattern around the world, this is where many people get obese or experience eating disorder too. How many people are dealing with fear of emptiness?

Now, we can’t escape the frequency because this is not some WIFI thing. This is how Universe govern itself. Being part of the Universe, we can only learn this through evolution and education.

But before we get there, we are just like bunch of babies that turn into our mothers for food and comfort.

So be wise when it comes to emotional eating. You know when you experience it. It’s okay to lose yourself and be emotionally moody about food and everything… but try to experience it with Awareness.

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