How We Drained Our Energy Over Small Talk?

Why I Am Not Interested in Small Talk?

I had a great conversation with a friend who had an opposite view about small talk. Both of us have Undefined Throat. If you don’t know what Undefined Throat is; it means we have an inconsistent energy to communicate or to act. Sounds bad, isn’t it? Well, it is not bad. Undefined Throat people have the flexibility in communication and action. For example; Celine Dion is an Undefined Throat person and she is a great performer.

One thing you need to know about Throat centre is, all our energies are going to channel out through the throat. For Undefined Throat like me, I would feel drained if I overuse my throat energy. Therefore, to conserve the energy, I speak when I need to and most of the conversation is educational. Now, is that boring? Maybe to some people. I used to have a friend who called me boring because I no longer entertain small talks.

Here Is the Reason Why.

I’m a person who is picky about small talk because I feel that small talk drains my energy, especially I am an Undefined Throat person. I noticed the same patterns in human collective. What I see in many people is, they wasted too much of their energies on unnecessary small talks especially with people they don’t love.

Every single time we talk, energy is used for that matter. By the time they need to get their act done, they have no energy to do so because all of it is wasted on small talk. If we to combine all the small talks in the world, it will be too many noises with only small gap for the Stillness.

Do I Completely Avoid Small Talk?

I love small talks, with people I love and when we have coffee together. I do small talks with my Chiropractor too. And I love to laugh. Any small talks that can make me laugh, I’m on it. I think it is lovely when we do it with people we love. I guess this is what Tribal all about.

There is more to learn about our Throat centre; the source of sounds and door to all manifestation in this world. Everyone is different, and yet it takes same awareness to notice the right timing in communication and manifestation.

These are my small talks for today; chocolate chips cookies dreams, uncut chicken dreams, a selfie in the kitchen and a cat on someone’s head. It is hilarious! And all that gives me some boost to write about this topic.

Now I think it would be great to sit on that couch with a cup of coffee and a box of chocolate chips cookies as a reward for the post. Anyone… wanna join me?

Photo taken at Bangsar Shopping Center.

 

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Struggles are Empowering.

Yesterday was the busiest day so far. I’m currently running three projects. One is under my own company. The other two are for people I work with where my skills are shared as a Personel Manager (Gate 17). Basically, my skills are used for structuring flow for their coaching businesses, seeing their goals, share my perspectives, and doing few other kinds of stuff.

These are one of my best experiences for doing what I love and for the recognitions that others give to me.

All that busyness is flow and support for my education fund and also for the living. Within this busyness, I get to make friends with many people and see their perspectives about Life. And the beauty is I get to experience the value of Awareness in those moments.

I believe everyone has their own struggles. I surely have mine. Born with the channel of Struggle (38-28) in my design; I experience tremendous struggle since I was a kid. What I can tell you is, with struggles, we have the potentials to live our purposes; only if we could remove the negative value from the word ‘Struggle’.

Anyway, that’s one delicious Salted Beef Sandwich I had yesterday at Rubberduck Cafe during work meeting with a friend. It is highly recommended for beef lover.

*Photo was taken at Rubberduck Cafe at Plaza Damas KL.

My day started at 6 am yesterday to attend a class and two meetings in the evening, one report for a client and two naps. Yes! I love my naps :).

Finding Your Root.

What are your roots?

One thing I love about Human Design is it tells you what is the best environment that you can fulfil your purposes. Within these environments, if you live correctly as yourself, you are going to stand out in that environment. You are going to stand strong because you know your root. If you don’t know your root, you become the environment, and nobody can see you because you are living the frequency of the environment.

For example; one of my environments is filled with emotional stuff. That means I can only live my purposes in the presence of emotions; that include emotional pain, dramas, passions, sensuality, sexual, confrontation, traumas and so on.

Imagine what happens if I didn’t live at my own frequency? I surely become the drama and the emotional pain itself and no one could see me or feel my presence. I have no way to be the guide for them.

Ever since I follow my strategy and authority, I stand out more in this environment. I get to be the guide for those who need to feel emotional peace.

My task for this year is to learn about the confrontation that comes from this environment. All I can say that this is just a beginning. I already feel the pressure in many ways :).

Find your roots, know your environment and let your True-Self flowering in this life.

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A Projector’s Dream, Movement Between Dimensions.

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I’m a Projector who turns into Reflector when I sleep (Dream Rave)I’m also a Quad Right variable (Human Design Variable). To date, I have no further information about my Dream Rave or about my variable; e.g. how my dreams work when I sleep or how sensitive I become when I close my eyes. Despite knowing less information in this area, I continue observing my dreams and its pattern.

This morning I experienced something new…something really different. It’s not the dream but the process of how I get out of the dream. This going to be a long post and I treated it as a journal rather than as formal article. This going to be something to look back one day (for whatever reason). Here you go.

I was in deep sleep and I dreamed my parent’s old house in Penang Island. It felt all pleasant and good (old house usually gave me eerie dreams).

Outside of the dream, my body woke up because it heard a loud sound of a big bike in front of the house. I associated loud motorcycles’ engine with robbers (past trauma). And as a Splenic being (a person who has survival intelligence as her authority of life), my body is very instinctively alert, so that explained why it woke up.

But I was still dreaming at the time. At least my mind did. So, I didn’t open my eyes. A part of me aware that I’m not in a dream, that I’m lying on a bed 400 km away from the old house… but I don’t think my mind realise that.

I say that because my mind could not figure out the house I’m living right now; I don’t remember where I am, and I couldn’t ‘see’ the actual house I’m living through my inner vision. But deep inside I know I live here. With my eyes still close, I tried to recall my current house. But all I saw was the old house. I tried to look outside, and I saw the old road in front of the house.

I was like “oh shit!”. I forced to remember but fail. I have this feeling that I can get disoriented if I open my eyes when my mind still not here. So, I keep my eyes close and gently let the mind takes in the information from the body. I know it will remember when it gets what the body is feeling. It will remember when the mind aligns with the body, so to speak.

Slowly the first thing I saw and felt is the bedroom. Then the living hall. I could see the old house living hall slowly disappeared and was replaced with the current living hall. Then the door opened, I still see the old road but the garden started to emerge, then the porch and the old road slowly faded away. At last, I remember where I am. I finally felt everything about the house. And I opened my eyes; fully awake from the dream.

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The Channel of Abstraction – A design of Mental Activity Mixed with Clarity.

As usual, I’m processing the experience by reflecting the past. With Gate 64 (Confusion and pressure to resolve the past) in my conscious design and Gate 47 (Realisation), this is what I had in mind.

What happened here was my body woke up because it thought there might be a robbery happened in the neighbourhood. Every single time I heard loud engine from a motorcycle, I woke up. Having a Splenic Intelligence as my inner guide, it is its instinct to keep me safe in this dimension. The only difference this time was my mind was still sleeping, therefore it still experiencing the dream dimension.

Somehow, I could observe things that happened. I believe the observation comes from my Awareness; something beyond the mind and body.

Something to think about… for fun.

When we experience sleep paralysis, it is the body that still sleeping, and the mind wakes up first. In this case, was it the reverse of sleep paralysis? Is this like Lucid Dream? Tell me what do you think? I never had Lucid Dream, therefore I don’t know how lucid dream works.

We could argue that maybe the mind keeps thinking about the dream, therefore it seems real. But remember that I could not recall any memory of the current house or where I am except that I’m aware I live in a different house.

Fascinating isn’t it? If our mind experience past, present and future in one space, then what I just experienced this morning was movement between dimensions (dreams and earth) in one space with my body grounded in the present moment. And I didn’t get the panic feeling like sleep paralysis.

And the fact that I dreamed something pleasant in my deep sleep; that’s wonderful. Nevertheless, we have to consider the effects of the neutrinos and Universe programming (the Maia) through the planetary transit and sharing space with other auras especially when we are sleeping.

Let’s Talk About Human Design.

Yesterday someone asked my what do I do as a life coach, so I decided to share this knowledge that I used for my coaching, it’s call Human Design System. Here goes!

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I bet my readers from the Western countries already open to the knowledge of Human Design. For us, in Asian, Human Design is quite new. If I didn’t hang out with my Western friends in the public forum like corefreedom.com, I wouldn’t know such knowledge.

Nevertheless, let’s talk about Human Design. Let’s go the way others didn’t go.

The Energetic Fingerprint.

We all know that our finger prints are different. But when people tell us we all are the same in sense of will power, motivation, behavior, thinking and reaction towards achieving success; we kinda settle for the idea. And because of it, we struggle to be like others. We want to fit in.

The problem about fitting in is, it pulls us away from being our Authentic Self. In order to fit in, one must be completely like the others. Otherwise, we fail to fit in! And we think our problem (when we can’t fit in) is because we are less than others. It’s sad to think that way. Not to mention the struggles and failures!

It all happen because we do not know our Authenticity.

Our finger prints are our Authenticity. We cannot alter it. But finger prints are physical manifestation of our Authentic Self. What about non-physical authenticity? How do we know our differences?

Do You Know Your Authenticity Self?

I’ve been searching for my authenticity for years. First, I know that I’m an Empath. But how I define Empath, energetically? How does Empath actually look like energetically? Then I discovered that I’m intuitive. Which part of me can defined that?

Thanks to Human Design, which I discovered in 2013, lay out a blueprint of my energetic designs. In that chart, I know what I am, what’s my domain personality, how my energy body flows, where it should go, what I shouldn’t do (it is all energetically speaking) and what are my roles in this world? It tells me why I am here and what I can do to live my life to the fullest?

Because of Human Design, I know the Empath trait in me, I found out why I’m intuitive. And I also came to acknowledge why people think I’m kinda annoyed and freak! And I don’t feel sorry for myself anymore. In fact, I’m loving every part of me, from the mind to the Soul.

So long story short, Human Design is a Science of Differentiation between human. The differences can be in many ways and all is shown in a simple Rave Chart (well! It’s not that simple anyway).

What Made Human Design System Mostly Accurate?

Human Design are the combination of modern and traditional knowledge, which consists of Astrology, the Kabbalah, the I`Ching (which the 64 gates come from) and the Chakra System. The part where the modern science came in is the reading of the Genetic Code. You can read more of the explanation in the Internet.

As a human being, we are very complex creature. There is no simple way to explain our being without combination from all aspects including the inner aspect like the genetic codons, the energy body like the aura and the Universe energy like the impact of planets’ energy on us. So, Human Design is a very complex system and yet, it reveals the simplicity of knowing our vessel (the body and its energy) and our Inner Self.

What Human Design Can Tell Us?

If you get your FREE Rave Chart at http://www.jovianarchive.com, you’ll discover basic information about your Type, Profile, Not-Self Theme (in the other words, your dominant setback), Definition, Incarnation Cross and the most important part is your Authority.

Beyond the basic information, you have extra information from the whole chart and it is complex. The chart doesn’t explain everything in detail. You can either read and discover the information through the internet or you can get experts who knows Human Design to explain the chart for you.

Around the whole charts, Human Design can explain two main things about your entire energy system:

  1. The Openness centers. We called it Undefined Centers. These are the centers where you unconsciously live as Not-Self (the conditioned self).
  2. The Defined centers. These are your Authentic energy. You have the access to the energy around the clock. However, we normally unaware of our Define centers because our Openness centers are more overwhelming.

According to this finding, if we don’t know this knowledge, we might life our whole life through the conditioned self and thinking that’s who we are!

But is knowing this important?

It depends.

  1. People who are successful, doesn’t really go and find out their Human Design. That is because they already live their Authenticity Self in the first place. Human Design is just a platform that provides us the structured information about our Authenticity.
  2. If you are a Projector, it is essential that you learn about your signature. For some reasons, Projectors are those who always live as somebody else, they are the failures ones and they get sick before the age of 40s (I got sick by age 32).
  3. If you are the Manifestor, you should know how to control your thoughts.

The rest, I feel it is important for you to know who you are. What you will do with the information is up to you.

Is This What I Am? Does This Design Change from Time to Time?

This is your energetic signature. Just like your finger prints, it doesn’t change until you die (I was looking for politer word but naaah!). It says that if you experience Near Death or if you practice meditation for more than 30 years, it might change. But there’s not many information to explain in detail. So intuitively, I feel that the changes might happen on the gates.

Will You Like Your Design?

This is funny. The first time I came to know that I’m a Projector, I feel so down and frustrated. Hey! I run a business. I have a lot of ideas how to be successful. But Human Design says, I have to wait for the invitation! How could I wait?! I was screaming inside my head and I tried to convince myself that whatever Human Design was saying is a total crap!

Not long after that I found another article says that I need to sleep alone! I was having difficulties sleeping alone because I was afraid of darkness. I had nightmares! The first few weeks, knowing Human Design is a mood killer.

Then I saw the beauty in it. The clarity of Who I Am. The understanding of my flow and why I always imitate others. And I fall in love.

What is The Most Precious Information I Found About Myself?

All pieces of information are important for you. In my case, the most precious is knowing I’m on the right path. I started Your Personal Motivator coaching service because I love to help people. Turn out my chart revealed that would be an ideal path for me. Other than that, would be knowing my intuition channel, which lies in gate 57. And the chart also explain why I can see patterns and tap into insightful knowledge and how to share it with the world.

If you ever find out your Human Design, pay attention to the Strategy and Authority first. Live by that Design!

Friction is an Art of Bonding.

There are so many ways where love comes around and relationships are built. Sometimes it comes around in some unexpected ways. It is illogical to say that relation could grow beautifully through a healthy confrontation, friction and tension. Process like this comes around, not just to test the strength of the relationship but bring up the growth through the friction.

First, let’s learn about friction because it is the door to passionate love and confrontation. We can learn about friction from the nature first. Before the plants can grow, the seeds will go through the friction, so it can emerge from underneath the soil. The plants within its intelligence knew that to survive, it must get the sunlight. Farmers musts wait for the seeds to turn into sprouts itself.

The seeds must go through friction itself. All plants and flowers that we see around us went through some friction, just to exist beautifully in this world.

In human, friction happens in many ways. When two people wanting to know each other, our auric field will go through friction. The process is expressed through our behaviours and communication.

Try observing people who are in love and look at the way they are flirting. That is some form of friction. When one auric field wanting to co-exist in the same space with another auric field, we get friction. After all, we are energies in motion. Friction is inevitable.

Friction is an art of Bonding. Without friction, we have no interest to bond with others. We don’t have to learn about it. It comes naturally when our auric field in contact with others. Flirting is just one aspect of friction.

There are many more types of friction that can be expressed through individual behaviour. For example; if you see two people arguing, that is a friction too. Without it, there is no growth in human relationship. Just like the seeds.

#Different Kind of Motivation: The Walk We Have to Take.

In 2009, I left the job I love for something I thought was good for me. The moment I said “no” to the offer given by the regional director, I cried. The tears full of grief and fear for not knowing what will unfold.

Nine years later I realised that sometimes we have to take the walk we don’t want in order to fulfill our destiny. The journey was not easy and it never meant to be easy. But that’s how it empowers me, and it prepares me to inspire other.

Despite the struggle, I learn to love the journey and surrender to whatever it Is. That’s the only way I can enjoy every steps without doubting my own sacred journey.

You have your own sacred walk. Take it and honour it. You will be amazed by your strength and ability to enjoy Life even though at times when you have to walk under the stormy weather.

The Incompetent – Gate 18.4

I’m adding this in my blog as a reference for a video “Life Is A Joke – Funny Realisation”, that I posted on my Facebook Page and a forum.

18.4 The Incompetent 

When we get to the fourth line, we get to the beginning of the upper trigram. This line is called “The Incompetent”. The nature of fourth lines is to externalize, which means that these lines are very fixed on a specific aspect. In some way, this is very reminiscent of the way in which the second line works.

Difficulties as a result of inadequacies that cannot be resolved because of inadequacies.

What this generally means for these people is that they will have a specific thing they want to correct. There are all kinds of other things they are able to correct in their life, but the one thing that they really want to correct, they can’t because they are inadequate to do that. By the way, the moment that they meet somebody that has the 48 and they get into contact with The Well, this can relieve inadequacy. The fear of inadequacy is in the 48th gate, which is the next step in this stream.

Remember that we are looking at gates that are potentials in a four gate stream. Here we have the potential of this awareness. The thing to recognize is that the awareness alone, this one thing that they cannot correct because of inadequacy, can come into contact with the necessary depth. That is always possible. All lines can ultimately be the exact mirrors of what they say.

Earth exalted: Given this negative position, survival through suffering. The inability to correct and its potential for suffering. These are people that say, “I just cannot make it better,” and they really suffer. “I can’t fix it. I can’t correct it. I can’t come up with a solution to this problem. I can’t do anything about it.”


Mercury in detriment. Indecision and anxiety and no escape from misfortune.
The demands of correction and its potential to generate anxiety. This constant anxiety comes from having this one thing that you can’t correct. (yep! that describes me)

When you see this line, be very careful about that. Don’t see that as meaning that they are incompetent with everything. That is not true. So often, when people see this line, they think that it is saying that they are incompetent to correct their general process. This is not true. Everything about the fourth line is about being fixed. You have to ask these people, “What is this one thing that you want to fix, that you can’t?” and see that isolated from the rest which you can work with.

The inability to correct and its potential for suffering; or The demands of correction and its potential to generate anxiety. One can become very anxious if there is this one thing that one cannot fix. This is the difficulty of the fourth line.

The fourth line can recognize incompetence everywhere because they know what it is like for them. This is true for every line that you read and think, “Oh, my god, these poor people.” The lines have their positive and negative and every line is a duality. These are processes that we go through. And whatever line you have, it is yours. Enjoy it. – Ra Uru Hu.

Source: Line Companion Book.

 

I post the video link as soon as it up to the public.

 

The Glimpse of Inner Peace in the Speck of Dusts.

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Do you want to know how does Being in the Now feels like? Thanks to cinematography, we can catch the glimpse of how being in the Now looks like. Before that, I want you to understand three things.

  • First, whatever that you see in the movies, that is just a tiny glimpse of eternity. Movies can only narrow down specific aspect of the Now but it can never replace the actually feeling of being in the Now.
  • Second, most of the movies take us away from the Now. It drawn at least two of our senses (sight and hearing) away from being aware of the Now. However, there are movies that carry the message of Being in the Now and I’m going to name one of the movie.
  • Third, you may want to consider that The Now is not entirely time base. And it is not a concept too. The Now is the door to Inner Peace.

If you read the book The Power of Now, then this is easy for you to grasp the essence of being Presence totally in the Now. Slowly it is not difficult for you to taste the glimpse of Inner Peace. However, if you haven’t read this book, then you can mentally understand The Now through certain movies.

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Microscopic of Dusts on the Big Screen.

Do you remember a movie called After Earth? There’s a scene where Kitai (played by Jaden Smith) lied down on the ground and facing his fear. He then became so presence in the moment where his fear dissolved, and his awareness are able to focus on little things like dusts floating in the air. The dusts are so vividly dancing in the air. The color (if I remember correctly) were gloomy and yet the cinematography brought up the moment of peace through Kitai’s breathing.

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And that’s the part I remembered because it gives the glimpse of inner peace. And I could say that because when we are in the Now moments, everything we see, touch, hear, smell and taste become vividly alive. That aliveness is Inner Peace.

Although what we see in the movie may not even accurately portray ‘moment of now’, but intellectually we see the fragment of Inner peace and also the glimpse of living without fear.

Fear Cannot Survive in the Now.

Why are we relating fear with being in the Now? In the After Earth, the reason Ursa cannot sense the presence of General Cypher Raige (played by Will Smith) is because Cypher Raige is being totally presence in the Now where fear in this system is dissolved.

Whether we realise it or not, we are caught in a web of fear; mostly created through our mind. That increases the state of anxiety in us. To reduce the anxiety is to reduce the mental fear. It takes practise to face fear by being in the now. This can be done by shifting our focus to our body and breathe the moment. This can be the most boring activity to our mind but not to our Awareness, certainly not to our body. This is also a form of meditation.

Remember that fear cannot consume you when you are fully presence. Fear cannot kill you when you are at peace with your Self. Anxiety is a by-product of mental fear. Therefore, don’t fight the anxiety. Don’t fight the fear too. Instead be gentle to what you feel and be presence in feeling the fear.

I’ve been practising to be in the Now moment from time to time. All I can say is, fear is not longer a mental torture for me. Instead, fear serve its purpose for my survival in the correct way. I enjoy my moments where I can feel the aliveness in the blades of grass, the dancing dusts in the air and many more.

If you want to experience Aliveness, Joy and Inner Peace, the only way to do it is to be presence in the Now. If you think the glimpse of Inner Peace in After Earth looked stunning and beautiful, wait until you experience the real Inner Peace in you.

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What is Human Design? – For Those Who Confused.

 Almost everyone asked me ‘what is Human Design?’. I asked the same thing back in 2013!That’s the common question and it is so difficult for everyone who has not mastered Human Design to explain what is Human Design…(that including me!). And this is what I have to share after a good barefoot walk this morning.

Basically, Human Design is about Making Decision correctly as Your Self. What it means is, you are going to make decisions based on your body (the vehicle) and each body has its own Authority (inner Authority-Inner Guide). Throughout the process, you are going to realise that your body make decisions for you and you get to witness the process because the Personality (the mind) is no longer burden with the struggle to make decisions.

Oh The Confused Mind

Why Making Decisions with The Mind Is Not Healthy For Us?

Many people disagree with the idea that mind is incapable of making decisions for our Life and for the body. We believe that the mind is the highest form of intellect. What we do not see is the mind is the easiest form to be manipulated by the program and conditioning field.

Let’s use food as an example. An exposure to McDonald’s advertisement including the sounds and colours repeatedly play like a tape have drawn our Awareness and Consciousness into focusing on one product/food. That advertisement alone can convince our mind that McDonald is the food the body needs at the time, even when the body is not hungry.

When the moment comes for the body to consume food, the decision is already made by others through advertisement, influences, opinions and etc. We end up eat what we have been influenced because our mind makes that decision long before the body gets hungry.  Is this healthy? Is this the right decision for the body? What if the body actually need different food based on that moment of hunger? At that moment, our mind which is designed to see duality started to throw more options of foods. This is where we get stucks in confusion, doubts and endless suffering of choices. Now imagine if you have to make big decisions like…buying a car?

And because we are so powerless and incapable to make correct decisions (particularly when we use our mind that is designed to see duality), we end up gambling our decisions. Even worst, we let outside Authority make decisions for us. The results; suffering for the body, mind and Soul.

When to Use Our Authority?

We make decisions all the time. Choosing food is a form of decision making. If you are a Generator and Manifesting Generator, this is the best practice to trust your Sacral to choose food for you. If you are a Splenic Authority, use your body awareness. Splenic Authority usually speaks if there is something threatening to the body. Ever since I surrendered my decision making to my Splenic, I don’t get food poisoning or stomach discomfort anymore. Splenic Authority gave me the power to say no to the food that is unhealthy for the body.

All form of Authority has its way to help you make decisions. You can begin with small decision making like choosing foods. And when it comes to big decisions like buying a house, business, relationship, investment…you have already built that trust with your Authority.

Your Design, Your Experiments.

Human Design simply gives us the knowledge and Awareness to return the decision making power from the mind to the body. This is where it all begins; the awakening of the body, the health, the expansion of Awareness, the Love of our Self and much more.

When you begin to follow you Strategy and Authority correctly, your life change. The frequency of your Being change. The energy body and aura change. Give yourself a try. I can’t convince you how powerful it is when your Authority begins to rule your Life. You just have experiment it yourself.

Trust your Authority (Inner Guide). Let your mind struggle with this process for a while. Don’t bother about what it says. Slowly it will show you how beautiful the mind can be when it just becomes a passenger in this body.

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