A Projector’s Dream, Movement Between Dimensions.

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I’m a Projector who turns into Reflector when I sleep (Dream Rave)I’m also a Quad Right variable (Human Design Variable). To date, I have no further information about my Dream Rave or about my variable; e.g. how my dreams work when I sleep or how sensitive I become when I close my eyes. Despite knowing less information in this area, I continue observing my dreams and its pattern.

This morning I experienced something new…something really different. It’s not the dream but the process of how I get out of the dream. This going to be a long post and I treated it as a journal rather than as formal article. This going to be something to look back one day (for whatever reason). Here you go.

I was in deep sleep and I dreamed my parent’s old house in Penang Island. It felt all pleasant and good (old house usually gave me eerie dreams).

Outside of the dream, my body woke up because it heard a loud sound of a big bike in front of the house. I associated loud motorcycles’ engine with robbers (past trauma). And as a Splenic being (a person who has survival intelligence as her authority of life), my body is very instinctively alert, so that explained why it woke up.

But I was still dreaming at the time. At least my mind did. So, I didn’t open my eyes. A part of me aware that I’m not in a dream, that I’m lying on a bed 400 km away from the old house… but I don’t think my mind realise that.

I say that because my mind could not figure out the house I’m living right now; I don’t remember where I am, and I couldn’t ‘see’ the actual house I’m living through my inner vision. But deep inside I know I live here. With my eyes still close, I tried to recall my current house. But all I saw was the old house. I tried to look outside, and I saw the old road in front of the house.

I was like “oh shit!”. I forced to remember but fail. I have this feeling that I can get disoriented if I open my eyes when my mind still not here. So, I keep my eyes close and gently let the mind takes in the information from the body. I know it will remember when it gets what the body is feeling. It will remember when the mind aligns with the body, so to speak.

Slowly the first thing I saw and felt is the bedroom. Then the living hall. I could see the old house living hall slowly disappeared and was replaced with the current living hall. Then the door opened, I still see the old road but the garden started to emerge, then the porch and the old road slowly faded away. At last, I remember where I am. I finally felt everything about the house. And I opened my eyes; fully awake from the dream.

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The Channel of Abstraction – A design of Mental Activity Mixed with Clarity.

As usual, I’m processing the experience by reflecting the past. With Gate 64 (Confusion and pressure to resolve the past) in my conscious design and Gate 47 (Realisation), this is what I had in mind.

What happened here was my body woke up because it thought there might be a robbery happened in the neighbourhood. Every single time I heard loud engine from a motorcycle, I woke up. Having a Splenic Intelligence as my inner guide, it is its instinct to keep me safe in this dimension. The only difference this time was my mind was still sleeping, therefore it still experiencing the dream dimension.

Somehow, I could observe things that happened. I believe the observation comes from my Awareness; something beyond the mind and body.

Something to think about… for fun.

When we experience sleep paralysis, it is the body that still sleeping, and the mind wakes up first. In this case, was it the reverse of sleep paralysis? Is this like Lucid Dream? Tell me what do you think? I never had Lucid Dream, therefore I don’t know how lucid dream works.

We could argue that maybe the mind keeps thinking about the dream, therefore it seems real. But remember that I could not recall any memory of the current house or where I am except that I’m aware I live in a different house.

Fascinating isn’t it? If our mind experience past, present and future in one space, then what I just experienced this morning was movement between dimensions (dreams and earth) in one space with my body grounded in the present moment. And I didn’t get the panic feeling like sleep paralysis.

And the fact that I dreamed something pleasant in my deep sleep; that’s wonderful. Nevertheless, we have to consider the effects of the neutrinos and Universe programming (the Maia) through the planetary transit and sharing space with other auras especially when we are sleeping.

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So Long My Old Man

Recently I asked my body to show me what to heal. A few days later, I began the week of provocation and fighter with tears. It happened out of nowhere and spontaneous. I had a thought about my late dad and a realisation that how deep I was conditioned by him. That realisation alone made me weep.

To write this will open up pieces of me to the world. I believe it’s time to bring it out to the Light. I seldom think of him but yesterday, his memory felt so alive. I knew it’s time to heal our Souls. Therefore, I would appreciate if you read this with compassion and feel no pity whatsoever towards our relationship. Remember that all of us are the product of conditioning and every journey is the sacred ones. So here we go.

I rarely speak about him. I don’t think of him as much as I think of my late mother. But yesterday, I saw a pattern. With him, I learned to fight; fight to be me, fight to get what I want, fight for love. All kind of fights. With him, I always wondered why I don’t feel so much love from him.

 
He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not.

Don’t get me wrong. He loved me but I don’t feel it. He was not a person of words. I remember asking him if he could carry me, he replied “And then throw you out of the balcony. Sure”. That response made me so happy. We ride an old bike around the island together. He took me to Chinese Kopitiam for breakfast. Sometimes I love to listen to his war stories; he was a soldier in WW2 and then fought with communists in the 60s. I learned to cook because of him. He was a great critic of my cooking.

Oh, I love those moments. Basically, I love if I could get attention from him but he loved not giving me one :D.

I didn’t cry when I saw him on his deathbed. He stared at me as if he knew he will leave. When he died, everyone wanted me to remove all the tubes from his body. They said only I could do it. I don’t know what I suppose to do but I did it anyway out of respect for him, without shed any tears. And I stopped cooking for years after he passed away.

 
A Wonderful Closure.

Sometimes we don’t know what kind of wound we keep inside of our system. If we didn’t ask to be healed, it will stay hidden in the dark. That probably why I never thought of him. The memories itself was in the dark. But when we are ready to heal, in all level, the Light will find its way to shine in the dark. The healing will flow in an unexpected way.

Yesterday felt like a huge closure for both of us. I have not wept for quite sometimes and it felt so damn good! The experience was like having a wild river flow through me. I felt so much lighter and so much gratitude for the healing.

 
What’s His Human Design?

And I ready to check his Human Design chart (another realisation). I don’t have the exact time yet so this going to be just a guess. I found out that he was either a Manifestor or an MG, with either Right Angle Cross of Consciousness or Juxaposition Cross of Experience. I’m still reflecting our past together so I could find realisations and then heal both of our souls.

If he was a Manifestor and I’m a Projector, that made a lot of sense 🙂

So long my old Man. May you find Peace, Love and Light Ayah, wherever you are ❤️

 

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Part 1: Dealing With Difficult Situations – Mag Aug and July 2013

Those who have followed my blog since last year knew that I am contributing articles on motivation, personal growth and healing to a lifestyle monthly newspaper/magazine called The Iskandarian/Waves Lifestyle. All the articles that I wrote and I am writing are to inspire reader, to educate readers on energy healing and emotional healing and to give hope to many people who feel that life is tough and uneasy.

Recently I have brought the magazine and the previous articles (re-printed) to the new readers, Filipinos who I worked together as a team. I am grateful that the sharing of experiences and knowledge are expanding to the international readers like the Filipino.

And now, I am truly happy to share it to the rest of the world. I will post two articles in one blog publishing. Enjoy the reading and please help me spread the messages if you feel the articles are inspiring and helpful to you and to the people around you. Thank you and I love you!

Latest Article – August 2013
Title: Dealing With Difficult Situations.
In this tough time, you can learn the simple way to deal with the difficult situations. All you need is daily practises!
Link: http://issuu.com/waveslifestyle/docs/the_iskandarian_aug_2012_issue_12_w

Dealing With Difficult Situations

Dealing With Difficult Situations

July 2013
Title: The Art of Solving Problems
solving problems is a need and it’s easy if you know how! Learn it in 300 words.
Link: http://issuu.com/waveslifestyle/docs/the_iskandarian_july_2013_web

The Art of Solving Problems