Human Design – Coffee,Coffee,Coffee…

That’s not my coffee!

I didn’t have my coffee for 6 weeks (I guess). Surely it’s been more than a month. At one point, I did take a tiny sip from a non-sugar long black to make my mouth bitter after I ate a cooked salmon.

You know what’s funny, I’m not really a coffee drinker. I can’t even finish a cup of coffee and often have to share it with my friends. But when something we used to have it and it is taken away from us, we gonna missed it. So I missed my half cup long black coffee!

Furthermore, I have some emotional relation to coffee.

This is also the reason why I missed my coffee. My late mother was a coffee drinker and oh! She took coffee like plain water. She started every morning with black coffee and she has a specific local brand (which Joe and I continuing using the same brand). Her best friend, Aunt Linda (my god-mom) will come to the house and drink it with her. She will have coffee for tea time and sometimes dinner.

A few days before she passed away, she asked if she could have her black coffee. The entire family was freaked out because her health was getting worse and I wasn’t around to witness whether she did have her coffee or not. Knowing my mom, she probably had it.

When I decode the emotional attachment towards coffee, what I see is, coffee makes my late mom happy. When she’s happy, I’m happy. I’m guessing, I carry that unconscious expectation when I’m with others especially with Joe. I know coffee makes her happy.

Is that necessary to make people happy at the expense of my health?

Here’s the answer. I’m a Projector Type human being. When my Generator or Manifesting Generator folks feel happy and satisfy, my world is colourful! I’m drinking it together with them because that’s what I did with my late mom.

Plus, have you seen Malaysian social culture? We love coffee places (from Mamak to Starbucks)! So it’s all social conditioning, which Projectors are deeply attuned to. And nothing is wrong with it. It’s a mundane life after all.

Since I’m on emotional healing through foods, this realisation helps me to be more aware. I may drink coffee after the 90 Days WildFit Challenge and back to the routine again… Or, I may not. That, I will leave it to my Splenic Authority (how I make every decision through my body intelligence). I guess we’ll find out soon!

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Human Design – A New Experience in Food

Something Different.

Yummy? I’m entering into a new experience. This suits this week transit Gate 36 theme – Crisis and Inexperience in moving into a new experience. What I can tell you is, I never thought I’m gonna do this and I don’t know what the end results would be.

In experiencing Gate 36, let go of the expectation. It is the expectation that will make you angry and frustrated or bitter or disappointed when it is not met. Gate 36 comes with crashing waves. That means when things turn out to be different, you may experience hurts and pain (broken heart is a good example).

Knowing this, I do not want to expect that I would lose a great amount of weight. Let’s just say, I would just let the ketosis experience manifested it for me. And since this is a new experience in my journey, therefore, I’m expecting some challenges. As Gate 36 would say “In any new experiences, there will be a crisis”.

I’m ready! I’ve been ready since last year and now the timing to manifest is right. I hope you are at Peace with whatever experiences that you have right now.

Note:
All the foods prepared with spontaneity (Splenic Authority here). Salad for Sunday afternoon. You can have it with the roasted chicken (marinated with herbs and dry coconut flakes) or with turmeric prawn and garlic. For the vegetables: Butterhead Leaf, Roasted Brussels Sprouts and Chinese Cabbage with salt, garlic and olive oil.

No sugar from now. It is hugely helpful for Projectors who want to improve their cognitive and for those who want to heal from inflammation and autoimmune diseases.

Follow your Strategy and Authority into any new diet experiment including PHS.

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Human Design – Playfulness.

Current Mood: Playfulness.

When the unpaid job is to document my own emotional healing through food, this is where I go.

I wanted to make the eggs happy but it looks more confused and frightening, LOL…

I’m off refined sugar for 2 weeks now and off rice/grains/wheat for 10 days. I lost more inches than weight. Total weight loss so far is 3 kg (trying that for years). Remember that everything is about right timing.

Human Design taught me to honor my timing.

And now I’m doing this because my divine timing is giving me the flow. Despite the challenge on sugar craving, everything seems to be flowing effortless and gracefully. Looking forward to this week challenge.

I Am Grateful!

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Human Design – Emotional Relationship with Food.

Lunch Time!

So I baked bread for lunch. Remember the Flaxseed Bread I was talking in my previous bread post? It looks like a cake but whatever. The preparation is simple and it suits those who are detoxing from sugar.

Anyway, this is our lunch for today (Joe and I). To be honest, two slices per meal are more than enough. Thanks to Dr. Tay Ju Lee and IshKiia Paige (from WildFit team) for the recipe.

My body is adjusting to the changes. 8 days no refined sugar and I begin to feel good, mentally… LOL! I’m still processing my emotional relationship with food and my past.

There are old memories that I never recalled before it’s begin to emerge vividly. And I’m going to let those memories reorganised itself into realisation when the timing is right. Right now, it’s all confusing, crashing and melancholic. Let’s see what happen next because I’m taking out rice from the diet too!

We are Grateful!

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Human Design – New Found Bread.

Good afternoon beautiful souls!

Photo taken by @joelai

Here’s something about food. I begin to take sugar out from my diet and I started with refined sugar first. That means, no usual bread. I love bread and my chiropractor, Dr Aileen suggested I try this German Bakery called Der Backmeister in Taman Tun. So today, after a road trip, we stopped by the bakery and voilà!

I asked for any bread that has no sugar. According to them, no sugar is used in the bread, hence most of their bread is sour and some are salty.

Intuitively, I picked the simplest one first; Plain Ciabatta. The taste is so damn good! I ate it plain in the car and by dinner… Well let’s just say I added a sunny side up on a toasted Ciabatta and enriched it with tomatoes and chopped onions. The taste? Heavenly!

Next mission, I want to do homemade Flaxseed Bread which I already bought the Flaxseed Meals and Black Sesame Powder. We’ll see when I have a mood to bake!

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Hold Your Horses! Is 1st Jan Really the New Year?

What are you doing today? Getting ready to face 2019? Hold your horses!

Instead of looking forward to new goals, how about reflecting the cycle of 2018. And this is the right moment to do so.

Technically, we are still in the 2018 Quarter of Mutation. In the other word, we are still going through some transformation until we reach a limitation (Gate 60). 2019 cycle will begin when the Sun leaves Gate 60.6 and enters Gate 41.1 (approx on 22nd Jan 2019)In Gate 41 where we begin our human experiential way.

This may seem small or irrelevant to you but ponder on this.

Do you realize how difficult it gets when you start your journey towards your goals on 1st Jan? For example, how many new years do you try to diet or exercise but end up failing? The reason is that on 1st Jan, we are influenced by the pressure to know our purpose. The pressure also comes through provocation and tension (Gate 38 – Gate 39). You certainly do not want to start anything new through tension.

You may also feel melancholy for NOT knowing your purpose. This is the reason why we all end up rushing towards 2019, thinking that this is the way we get to our purposes. If you do feel this rushing energy to live your purposes; Reflect and Patience is the key.

We still have four transit Gates to go (38, 54, 61 and 60 – approx 22 days) before we can begin something new. Meantime, enjoy the remaining cycle of mutation and transformation.

This is me today. I was on the bed watching Netflix and I thought “my fingers need some shoes!” :D. I guess I’m gonna kickstarting my journey towards 2019 with some glam! LOL…

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Staring at Death.

I am amazed by how my mind sees Life and Death co-exist in one space. The mind thinks Life and Death are separated. It’s duality, that’s how our minds see Life. Beyond the mind, within our own Spirit, we know that Death is a process within Life. Death is mutation and transformation. An end of a cycle is a beginning of a cycle. Life is the whole cycle and death is a point within the cycle.

Look at the trees. There are part of the branches broken and died but it gives space for new leaves to grow. The dead branches are the point of transformation. The aliveness of Life and its cycle is still within everything that you see in the picture.

I always wonder about my own death. What, when and how the point will be. What’s the new beginning that my end will bring to me and to the world?

By the way, I have Gate 28.6 in unconscious Mars (lessons and opportunity for growth on a personal level). Fear of Death is part of the process that helps me to live my purpose. Funny because now I begin to realize why I always stare at death 🙂

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Peace and Stillness.

These are the feelings, moments and reflections I experienced today.

Spontaneous.

Monotonous.

Quiet.

Stillness.

Gift.

Retreat.

Nap.

Blue.

Waiting.

Observing.

Worry.

Provocation.

Honour.

Gratitude.

Reflect your day is a simple exercise that you can do in a daily basis.

It could help you to see your life in the bigger picture.

The photo represents Peace and Stillness. 

It is a gift for you; whoever you are, wherever you are.

Breathe and be Conscious.

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Flying Taught Me One Thing.

My first flight experience was ten years ago from Kuala Lumpur to Kuching; alone! I was a frequent traveller who took a bus from Penang to Kuala Lumpur or to the south. Not to mention that sometimes I experienced anxiety during travelling. So, imagine what it might do to me when I found out that I have to take a flight alone to Kuching. Out of excitement and invitation, I gained some courage and I decided to give it a try.

I sat by the window and the passenger who sat next to me was a guy. A friend mentally prepared me before the flight. She asked me to chew something, so I don’t get discomfort by the pressure. When she got to the part where “there is a bag if you need to vomit”, boy that triggered the anxiety. Anyway, I did whatever she told me. I thought I will be anxious or worse screaming when the flight takes off or when I had to vomit. Guess what happen?

I clapped my hands with full of excitement and said “Yayyyy!” just like a five years old kid. The guy next to me was surprised by my sudden excitement. I told him “My first time”.

The moment I reached Kuching’s airport, I called my friend.
“I’m not going to travel by bus anymore!” One word at the time.

I love flying, even I do feel a little anxious about it. The feeling is probably collective. Anyway, whenever I fly, I get to see a different perspective on Life.

Human nowadays have the capacity to view life, not just horizontal and from vertical view. Thanks to the Wright brothers for the invention of the aeroplane and people who built the rocket to space. The further and higher we get, the more information field we explore in terms of self-reflecting consciousness.

Try this. When you are in the sky flying, look down at the Earth. This is how nature, the clouds, the birds, the rains, the thunders, the Universe is looking at us. See the Life and feels it. You gonna enjoy the perspectives.

Sometimes It’s Good to Make Mistakes.

I have Projectors asking me about bitterness and success. The common question is how do they know if they will get the invitation? What happens if they initiate or manipulate the invitation? For example; what happens if they give advice to people before they are invited to do so?

To that I say, go ahead and experiment with that initiation. Give advice anyway but do it with awareness so you can feel the taste of the energy in your body. The body don’t lie. If the initiation is not recognised or invited in any level, your body will tell you that the energy is not appreciated, and it is wasted. The body feels the bitterness and you will feel the bitterness too. With awareness, you may acknowledge the bitterness, and hopefully, you will have vivid experience about what is right and what is not. From there, you get to learn why the invitation is important for you as a Projector.

If you taste the bitterness, surely you gonna love the taste of Success (the signature theme for Projector). Surely, you are not going to compromise your potential to be recognised and to be successful. All this takes practice to trust your Authority and Strategy.

Remember that Human Design is about experimenting our Self, our design. Only you can experience YOU. Only you have the Awareness to know YOU. So, go ahead, make mistakes but do it with awareness. It’s all about the awareness of being YOU.

LOVE;
Not the 3rd Line. Just a Hermit who loves her company.