Peace and Stillness.

These are the feelings, moments and reflections I experienced today.

Spontaneous.

Monotonous.

Quiet.

Stillness.

Gift.

Retreat.

Nap.

Blue.

Waiting.

Observing.

Worry.

Provocation.

Honour.

Gratitude.

Reflect your day is a simple exercise that you can do in a daily basis.

It could help you to see your life in the bigger picture.

The photo represents Peace and Stillness. 

It is a gift for you; whoever you are, wherever you are.

Breathe and be Conscious.

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Thank you for reading, I hope this can shed some lights on your journey! Blessing to you all. Comment and share your thoughts with me if you like.

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Flying Taught Me One Thing.

My first flight experience was ten years ago from Kuala Lumpur to Kuching; alone! I was a frequent traveller who took a bus from Penang to Kuala Lumpur or to the south. Not to mention that sometimes I experienced anxiety during travelling. So, imagine what it might do to me when I found out that I have to take a flight alone to Kuching. Out of excitement and invitation, I gained some courage and I decided to give it a try.

I sat by the window and the passenger who sat next to me was a guy. A friend mentally prepared me before the flight. She asked me to chew something, so I don’t get discomfort by the pressure. When she got to the part where “there is a bag if you need to vomit”, boy that triggered the anxiety. Anyway, I did whatever she told me. I thought I will be anxious or worse screaming when the flight takes off or when I had to vomit. Guess what happen?

I clapped my hands with full of excitement and said “Yayyyy!” just like a five years old kid. The guy next to me was surprised by my sudden excitement. I told him “My first time”.

The moment I reached Kuching’s airport, I called my friend.
“I’m not going to travel by bus anymore!” One word at the time.

I love flying, even I do feel a little anxious about it. The feeling is probably collective. Anyway, whenever I fly, I get to see a different perspective on Life.

Human nowadays have the capacity to view life, not just horizontal and from vertical view. Thanks to the Wright brothers for the invention of the aeroplane and people who built the rocket to space. The further and higher we get, the more information field we explore in terms of self-reflecting consciousness.

Try this. When you are in the sky flying, look down at the Earth. This is how nature, the clouds, the birds, the rains, the thunders, the Universe is looking at us. See the Life and feels it. You gonna enjoy the perspectives.

Sometimes It’s Good to Make Mistakes.

I have Projectors asking me about bitterness and success. The common question is how do they know if they will get the invitation? What happens if they initiate or manipulate the invitation? For example; what happens if they give advice to people before they are invited to do so?

To that I say, go ahead and experiment with that initiation. Give advice anyway but do it with awareness so you can feel the taste of the energy in your body. The body don’t lie. If the initiation is not recognised or invited in any level, your body will tell you that the energy is not appreciated, and it is wasted. The body feels the bitterness and you will feel the bitterness too. With awareness, you may acknowledge the bitterness, and hopefully, you will have vivid experience about what is right and what is not. From there, you get to learn why the invitation is important for you as a Projector.

If you taste the bitterness, surely you gonna love the taste of Success (the signature theme for Projector). Surely, you are not going to compromise your potential to be recognised and to be successful. All this takes practice to trust your Authority and Strategy.

Remember that Human Design is about experimenting our Self, our design. Only you can experience YOU. Only you have the Awareness to know YOU. So, go ahead, make mistakes but do it with awareness. It’s all about the awareness of being YOU.

LOVE;
Not the 3rd Line. Just a Hermit who loves her company.

Grief – Who We Actually Miss?

Last night we talked about Grief. There were noises in the background, but it subsided to almost silent during the conversation. We pondered about grief; why the feeling is heavy and why sometimes we grief over someone who is not even in our inner circle.At that moment, I realised we have the same grief. I lost a friend in December 2016 and I grief till today. The grief is small and sometimes subtle. I know it’s a grief because I would stare deep into my inner space and try to fill the emptiness. Most of the time, the mind is occupied by self-guilt, but space remain empty.I love taking photos of empty chairs. It gives me the sense of space; the same space I’m staring into. Imagine those people who sat on these chairs during the day and they left during the night. If this is how death looks like, what are we missing here?During the conversation, this came out right from my lips. “What we miss is their presence (physical) and now it just an empty space”. We don’t connect much with Souls. We are a physical creature. Physical presence, the body itself make so much difference in this world. That’s what we missed. The rest come and go together with the body including the expression of love, the voice, the touch, everything about the body.That’s the most torturing feeling about grief’; longing for the body to be around. However, if we take grief with a touch of Spirituality, we would understand that Space is never Empty. The presence is always there. The essence of the energy body is right there. It’s just they appeared in a different form.Whenever I see empty chairs, I feel a deep sense of Peace and I would capture the moments through the lens. It’s okay to grieve. I no longer shed tears over her passing. I don’t think I even have tears to grieve. All I do is accepting the space I feel whenever I think of her.

That space is Love. I wish her Peace, wherever she is now.

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The Glimpse of Inner Peace in the Speck of Dusts.

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Do you want to know how does Being in the Now feels like? Thanks to cinematography, we can catch the glimpse of how being in the Now looks like. Before that, I want you to understand three things.

  • First, whatever that you see in the movies, that is just a tiny glimpse of eternity. Movies can only narrow down specific aspect of the Now but it can never replace the actually feeling of being in the Now.
  • Second, most of the movies take us away from the Now. It drawn at least two of our senses (sight and hearing) away from being aware of the Now. However, there are movies that carry the message of Being in the Now and I’m going to name one of the movie.
  • Third, you may want to consider that The Now is not entirely time base. And it is not a concept too. The Now is the door to Inner Peace.

If you read the book The Power of Now, then this is easy for you to grasp the essence of being Presence totally in the Now. Slowly it is not difficult for you to taste the glimpse of Inner Peace. However, if you haven’t read this book, then you can mentally understand The Now through certain movies.

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Microscopic of Dusts on the Big Screen.

Do you remember a movie called After Earth? There’s a scene where Kitai (played by Jaden Smith) lied down on the ground and facing his fear. He then became so presence in the moment where his fear dissolved, and his awareness are able to focus on little things like dusts floating in the air. The dusts are so vividly dancing in the air. The color (if I remember correctly) were gloomy and yet the cinematography brought up the moment of peace through Kitai’s breathing.

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And that’s the part I remembered because it gives the glimpse of inner peace. And I could say that because when we are in the Now moments, everything we see, touch, hear, smell and taste become vividly alive. That aliveness is Inner Peace.

Although what we see in the movie may not even accurately portray ‘moment of now’, but intellectually we see the fragment of Inner peace and also the glimpse of living without fear.

Fear Cannot Survive in the Now.

Why are we relating fear with being in the Now? In the After Earth, the reason Ursa cannot sense the presence of General Cypher Raige (played by Will Smith) is because Cypher Raige is being totally presence in the Now where fear in this system is dissolved.

Whether we realise it or not, we are caught in a web of fear; mostly created through our mind. That increases the state of anxiety in us. To reduce the anxiety is to reduce the mental fear. It takes practise to face fear by being in the now. This can be done by shifting our focus to our body and breathe the moment. This can be the most boring activity to our mind but not to our Awareness, certainly not to our body. This is also a form of meditation.

Remember that fear cannot consume you when you are fully presence. Fear cannot kill you when you are at peace with your Self. Anxiety is a by-product of mental fear. Therefore, don’t fight the anxiety. Don’t fight the fear too. Instead be gentle to what you feel and be presence in feeling the fear.

I’ve been practising to be in the Now moment from time to time. All I can say is, fear is not longer a mental torture for me. Instead, fear serve its purpose for my survival in the correct way. I enjoy my moments where I can feel the aliveness in the blades of grass, the dancing dusts in the air and many more.

If you want to experience Aliveness, Joy and Inner Peace, the only way to do it is to be presence in the Now. If you think the glimpse of Inner Peace in After Earth looked stunning and beautiful, wait until you experience the real Inner Peace in you.

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The Beauty of Correct Struggle

There is an aspect of struggle in our individual process. Everyone without exception; has our moments of struggle. This struggle is meant to be transmuted into empowerment; provided we choose the right struggles.

For Projector, an invitation into a right struggle can change his/her entire life. Same goes for Generator, MG, Manifestor and Reflector. When you respond to the right struggle (e.g Generator), this energy will drive you towards your purposes. Other than that, it just going to be an endless struggle of frustration, bitterness, anger and disappointment.

The Channel of Struggle (A Design of Stubbornness) resides in two gates. Gate 38; the gate of a fighter where it has the drives to be the warrior of ‘its way’. When meeting up the gate 28; the risk taker, we are going to have the potential awareness of our purposes and fights. Without one of it, the struggle is incomplete for transmutation and empowerment. And yet, all of us has our chance to transform the struggle.

Struggles - Which One Do You Choose

The Duality of Struggle. Photo by Rose Osman. Location IKANO

 

This week can be tough because Gate 38 is having its pressure. The Tension we feel in the air is the pressure fighting for purposes. This is also an opportunity to start reflecting whether this struggle that we are facing is the right ones for us. If any of this struggles bring out the not-self theme (anger, bitterness, frustration, disappointment), then be conscious that this struggle is not serving our purposes.

Be kind to yourself, to your body this week and be kind to others. Everyone is fighting their own struggles and mostly through the conditioning of Not-Self. Embrace your struggles, let go the one that doesn’t serve you good and get ready to be showered with transformation in the next few days.

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Lesson of Letting Go from the Cats – Our Zen Masters

This is a story that happened about 2 months ago.

“Adopter wants to take Oren tonight instead of tomorrow. I can tell you how attachment feels like. It makes my heart feel heavy to let go.
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So let’s talk about attachment. We build this feeling everyday to people we love, to our pets, to our materials. Is this love? This is human love. There is a thin line between love and the urge to possess. Attachment that turns into possession is one form of suffering.

Attachment serve its purposes to connect us, at least to average human who have not yet enlighten (including me). And we know better. When we couldn’t let go; we suffer.

At first I said no to adoption tonight and thinking that I do better tomorrow. Then I took a moment to understand this feeling better. Oren, Cerah (means Bright) and Melancholy (these are the cats names) are the expression of Consciousness. If you like to relate to God, they are a fragment of God’s essence of Love. Through them we can see how Life being playful, how life creates balance and so much more to learn. Most important is; through them we get to see ourselves better.
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Attachment happens. We are just human. What we can do best is acknowledge the attachments. And when time comes to let go; do it with Love so suffering don’t consume our heart and Soul.

So I already gave my kisses to Oren. And I asked the mama cat (Melancholy) and Cerah to be ready to let go. Surprisingly Melancholy walked us to the gate and when Oren left, she walked back to Cerah.
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This Love feels like heaven. Eckhart Tolle was right. They are great Zen Masters. We are blessed to host them even just for a while. To our adopters, Thank you.”

Thank you for letting me put the words here.
Good night.

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The Art of Giving Back

Healing anxiety and depression is going to take time unless you are the chosen one who is going to experience a leap of consciousness. For many people, healing happen gracefully, day to day basis. Just like waiting for a plant to grow. The process seems slow to the mind, but the life force energy can be felt if we pay attention to it. Same goes with healing in our body. Feel it and acknowledge it.

One of the healing steps I teach for Anxiety and Depression is Giving Back. The process is to train your body and mind to connect with others who need your contribution. Instead of becoming the victim of Anxiety and Depression, you become the healer who gives. You heal yourself in the giving process.

Giving back promotes the growth in Life. Giving back allows energy to flow in and out of you in harmony. Whenever you give-back, do it consciously. It can heals you.

Photo taken by: Joe Lai

Morning Rain

Humanity are now have access to all spectrum of emotions. It’s not we don’t feel emotions before. We do. But now we have access to it with Awareness. We are experiencing our emotions from a different level of consciousness.

In the process, pain felt more intense. So does Peace. Do know that if we feel pain and suffering inside of us, we also could feel Peace and Love within us.

Universe has its way to help human going through suffering, only when they are willing to embrace the presence moment. Use rainy day to understand your emotions. Rain is water, so does emotions. Let the Universe frequency helps you become conscious of your Self.

Feel your emotions wherever you are. Even if rainy days make you grumpy and angry, feels it. I’m not guiding you to be positive. I’m guiding you to become aware of your emotional intelligence.

Breathe and be alive from within.

Anyway, this is my kind of morning. I Love morning rain so far. It makes me feel peace, joyful and creative.

So Long My Old Man

Recently I asked my body to show me what to heal. A few days later, I began the week of provocation and fighter with tears. It happened out of nowhere and spontaneous. I had a thought about my late dad and a realisation that how deep I was conditioned by him. That realisation alone made me weep.

To write this will open up pieces of me to the world. I believe it’s time to bring it out to the Light. I seldom think of him but yesterday, his memory felt so alive. I knew it’s time to heal our Souls. Therefore, I would appreciate if you read this with compassion and feel no pity whatsoever towards our relationship. Remember that all of us are the product of conditioning and every journey is the sacred ones. So here we go.

I rarely speak about him. I don’t think of him as much as I think of my late mother. But yesterday, I saw a pattern. With him, I learned to fight; fight to be me, fight to get what I want, fight for love. All kind of fights. With him, I always wondered why I don’t feel so much love from him.

 
He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not.

Don’t get me wrong. He loved me but I don’t feel it. He was not a person of words. I remember asking him if he could carry me, he replied “And then throw you out of the balcony. Sure”. That response made me so happy. We ride an old bike around the island together. He took me to Chinese Kopitiam for breakfast. Sometimes I love to listen to his war stories; he was a soldier in WW2 and then fought with communists in the 60s. I learned to cook because of him. He was a great critic of my cooking.

Oh, I love those moments. Basically, I love if I could get attention from him but he loved not giving me one :D.

I didn’t cry when I saw him on his deathbed. He stared at me as if he knew he will leave. When he died, everyone wanted me to remove all the tubes from his body. They said only I could do it. I don’t know what I suppose to do but I did it anyway out of respect for him, without shed any tears. And I stopped cooking for years after he passed away.

 
A Wonderful Closure.

Sometimes we don’t know what kind of wound we keep inside of our system. If we didn’t ask to be healed, it will stay hidden in the dark. That probably why I never thought of him. The memories itself was in the dark. But when we are ready to heal, in all level, the Light will find its way to shine in the dark. The healing will flow in an unexpected way.

Yesterday felt like a huge closure for both of us. I have not wept for quite sometimes and it felt so damn good! The experience was like having a wild river flow through me. I felt so much lighter and so much gratitude for the healing.

 
What’s His Human Design?

And I ready to check his Human Design chart (another realisation). I don’t have the exact time yet so this going to be just a guess. I found out that he was either a Manifestor or an MG, with either Right Angle Cross of Consciousness or Juxaposition Cross of Experience. I’m still reflecting our past together so I could find realisations and then heal both of our souls.

If he was a Manifestor and I’m a Projector, that made a lot of sense 🙂

So long my old Man. May you find Peace, Love and Light Ayah, wherever you are ❤️

 

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