Human Design – Follow Your Gut Feeling.

It takes time to be familiar with your Splenic voice and it is common when you missed it because Splenic tends to speaks once. And that’s what happened to me a few days ago.

This is the result of me not listening to my Splenic Authority. I was working with Joe in the office and my Splenic told me to work in the bedroom instead. I felt the voice loud and clear. It transmitting through my body. This becomes the decision I have to make; to continue working in the office or to move to the bedroom. Instead of packing my stuff and work in the bedroom, I told myself “hold on, let me finish this first” (classic example of how the mind using my Undefined Sacral to make a decision; not knowing when to quit).

I could feel in my nose that Joe has a flu virus. That’s Intuition. That’s Splenic.

Anyway, a 5-10 minutes later, I walked out from the room but I guess it’s already too late because 2 days later, I’m down with flu, sore throat, headache and fever.

I imagine the tiny flu virus floating in the air and my Splenic sensed it. My immune system immediately knows the danger is coming. My body communicates with me by telling me to change the environment. And I ignored that. So here I am, on the bed resting.

This is how the experiment with your Strategy and Authority looks like too. You need to feel it by yourself. If you are a Splenic Authority, pay attention to how your body communicates with you because every moment is about staying alive in this fragile life.

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Worth Every Step!

Yesterday my weight reduced to 59.5kg. That’s my latest target weight. Finally, my weight reached below 60kg. 5 months in WildFit, I have lost 10kgs and more than 84cm in total measurement.

The best part is WildFit helps me improved my hormone circulation. At this point, I no longer have to take synthetic progesterone every 3 months to induce menstrual cycle.

Like I stated in my other posts, healing takes time. What I’m healing from is not just the body but emotional healing too. Food is one great source of healing. Eating in seasons attuned me to nature, opened up my awareness of the season cycle in my body and outside my body. I feel blessed that I have consistent support from Dr. Tay Ju Lee and the WildFit team. She did great work in WildFit.

So far, I Am Grateful for the progress. The long sleeves that I’m wearing today belong to Joe! I asked her permission to try and see if I can fit in her size. There you go! She is a size S.

My next target is 58kg. Right now losing weight is not my main goal. At this point, I’m doing it for fun!

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Love and Pain Through the Morning Breeze.

There was a depressing feeling visited me two days ago. I was lying on the bed and there was a pressure wanting to flow but couldn’t and it has no direction to go too.

I picked a book from the office and I went to the living hall. I sat on the couch with the wooden door wide open and I let the afternoon breeze flew in. I didn’t concentrate on the book that much. My awareness was shifting between the book and the depression. The day went like that until I feel tired at night.

There is something beautiful in this process when we allow it to be. After a day feeling depressed, I realised a pattern and possible a trauma that probably still living inside of me. I feel so much Love today and so much pain at the same time. These two seems like dancing in perfect rhythm, not separating.

My body feeling sore. Gently, I moved my body through yoga, stretching through the pain. Morning breeze showered me with unconditional Love, which helped me feel calm. Through the day, I’m seeing more of the trauma, more of the emotional pain that I went through for many years.

Pain and trauma takes time to heal. If you ever go through the same thing, where pain manifested as pain-body, where the pressure feels too much for you… do know that you are not alone. It’s okay to feel the pain. Do know that it comes with Love, just like every shadow has light shining from the other side.

Stay strong! Be gentle with yourself.
I Love YOU, wherever you are ❤

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90 days of Wildfit Challenge.

Final Results.

text15.png7 days ago was the last day for my 90 days of WildFit Challenge. I’m impressed with the way my body is making the progress. Since my Authority is Splenic, everything is about my body consciousness. There were countless of damages I did to this body through food.

WildFit provides me with the opportunity to heal and to decondition from food and emotional eating. And the best part is, WildFit trains me to be aware of the foods and the seasons.

Last night during our zoom call, IshKiia asked how much total loss that I experienced. Here’s the result.

I’ve lost a total of 84.09 cm (33.11 inches). The biggest loss is the fat on my hips from 138 cm down to 98 cm. Total KG loss is 6 kg (from 68 to 62 kg). I was told that it is okay to lose more inches than weight. I Am Grateful for that too because to lose inches means the body is cycling out the old fat and toxin.

WildFit is not a diet program. From my experience, it’s a spiritual and healing program for the body through food. WildFit certainly enhances my state of awareness towards food and the food industry. My biggest gain is the gift to look at coconut rice and not feeling a deep emotional craving to it. That’s freedom!

Again, I Am so Grateful for the journey. And Thank you for the support given by Dr. Tay Ju LeeIshKiia and the rest of the group. They are the best!

Photo 1-2: Wildfit results.
Photo 3: Before Wildfit, weight was around 68-69 kg.
Photo 4: Taken in 2017 with a weight ranging between 69-70 kg.

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Root Center and How I Release Pressure.

I will be doing a series of throwback posts, all about my stay and classes that I did in Penang Island. So the time that I mention will not be the current ones.

“What do we need to do when we feel the physical pressure turning into stress? This is a short info about the Root Center. We are going to talk about Root Center and its pressure this weekend Living Your Design Workshop in Bayan Baru.

Here’s my morning walk for today. As a Splenic being, my body know what to do to reduce the pressure ❤. How about you?”

Location Botanical Garden, Penang Island.

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Human Design – Sleep in Your Own Aura.

My Little Niece, 10 years ago.

If you want to wake up as your Self, you need to sleep in your own aura (sleeping alone). This goes to all Types (Manifestor, Generator/MG, Projector and Reflector). The reason is Conditioning. We are deeply programmed by the Maia even when we are sleeping.

Especially for the Projectors. This is the only type that is easily conditioned by others and the environment. Therefore, sleeping in the same space with others will make Projectors wake up acting like others without they know it.

For example, when a Projector sleeping with a Generator or a Manifesting Generator, the Projector will wake up thinking about work and doing. That also means the Projector wakes up against her/his nature. All Projectors true nature should be about guiding energies, not working the energies. The deep programming on Projectors during their sleep can make others see the Projectors as an energy worker rather than a gifted guide. This is one of the reasons why many Projectors end up working a long hours job.

Remember conditioning means Programming. And it happens to all Types, with Projectors suffer the most from it. Imagine waking up being programmed as somebody else. This is where we get Generators thinking they are a Manifestor, and Manifestor thinking they need to respond, Projectors become super slaves, and Reflector gets confused about everything.

There is no way to know your Self until you sleep in your own aura. There is no way to know your gifts until you wake up every morning as YOU.

The photo was taken 10 years ago. She is my niece, a baby Projector. She is 2/4 RAX of The Four Ways. She is designed to be an inspirational thinker, a secret hearer and a democratic leader.

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Human Design – Coffee,Coffee,Coffee…

That’s not my coffee!

I didn’t have my coffee for 6 weeks (I guess). Surely it’s been more than a month. At one point, I did take a tiny sip from a non-sugar long black to make my mouth bitter after I ate a cooked salmon.

You know what’s funny, I’m not really a coffee drinker. I can’t even finish a cup of coffee and often have to share it with my friends. But when something we used to have it and it is taken away from us, we gonna missed it. So I missed my half cup long black coffee!

Furthermore, I have some emotional relation to coffee.

This is also the reason why I missed my coffee. My late mother was a coffee drinker and oh! She took coffee like plain water. She started every morning with black coffee and she has a specific local brand (which Joe and I continuing using the same brand). Her best friend, Aunt Linda (my god-mom) will come to the house and drink it with her. She will have coffee for tea time and sometimes dinner.

A few days before she passed away, she asked if she could have her black coffee. The entire family was freaked out because her health was getting worse and I wasn’t around to witness whether she did have her coffee or not. Knowing my mom, she probably had it.

When I decode the emotional attachment towards coffee, what I see is, coffee makes my late mom happy. When she’s happy, I’m happy. I’m guessing, I carry that unconscious expectation when I’m with others especially with Joe. I know coffee makes her happy.

Is that necessary to make people happy at the expense of my health?

Here’s the answer. I’m a Projector Type human being. When my Generator or Manifesting Generator folks feel happy and satisfy, my world is colourful! I’m drinking it together with them because that’s what I did with my late mom.

Plus, have you seen Malaysian social culture? We love coffee places (from Mamak to Starbucks)! So it’s all social conditioning, which Projectors are deeply attuned to. And nothing is wrong with it. It’s a mundane life after all.

Since I’m on emotional healing through foods, this realisation helps me to be more aware. I may drink coffee after the 90 Days WildFit Challenge and back to the routine again… Or, I may not. That, I will leave it to my Splenic Authority (how I make every decision through my body intelligence). I guess we’ll find out soon!

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Human Design – A New Experience in Food

Something Different.

Yummy? I’m entering into a new experience. This suits this week transit Gate 36 theme – Crisis and Inexperience in moving into a new experience. What I can tell you is, I never thought I’m gonna do this and I don’t know what the end results would be.

In experiencing Gate 36, let go of the expectation. It is the expectation that will make you angry and frustrated or bitter or disappointed when it is not met. Gate 36 comes with crashing waves. That means when things turn out to be different, you may experience hurts and pain (broken heart is a good example).

Knowing this, I do not want to expect that I would lose a great amount of weight. Let’s just say, I would just let the ketosis experience manifested it for me. And since this is a new experience in my journey, therefore, I’m expecting some challenges. As Gate 36 would say “In any new experiences, there will be a crisis”.

I’m ready! I’ve been ready since last year and now the timing to manifest is right. I hope you are at Peace with whatever experiences that you have right now.

Note:
All the foods prepared with spontaneity (Splenic Authority here). Salad for Sunday afternoon. You can have it with the roasted chicken (marinated with herbs and dry coconut flakes) or with turmeric prawn and garlic. For the vegetables: Butterhead Leaf, Roasted Brussels Sprouts and Chinese Cabbage with salt, garlic and olive oil.

No sugar from now. It is hugely helpful for Projectors who want to improve their cognitive and for those who want to heal from inflammation and autoimmune diseases.

Follow your Strategy and Authority into any new diet experiment including PHS.

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Human Design – Playfulness.

Current Mood: Playfulness.

When the unpaid job is to document my own emotional healing through food, this is where I go.

I wanted to make the eggs happy but it looks more confused and frightening, LOL…

I’m off refined sugar for 2 weeks now and off rice/grains/wheat for 10 days. I lost more inches than weight. Total weight loss so far is 3 kg (trying that for years). Remember that everything is about right timing.

Human Design taught me to honor my timing.

And now I’m doing this because my divine timing is giving me the flow. Despite the challenge on sugar craving, everything seems to be flowing effortless and gracefully. Looking forward to this week challenge.

I Am Grateful!

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Human Design – Emotional Relationship with Food.

Lunch Time!

So I baked bread for lunch. Remember the Flaxseed Bread I was talking in my previous bread post? It looks like a cake but whatever. The preparation is simple and it suits those who are detoxing from sugar.

Anyway, this is our lunch for today (Joe and I). To be honest, two slices per meal are more than enough. Thanks to Dr. Tay Ju Lee and IshKiia Paige (from WildFit team) for the recipe.

My body is adjusting to the changes. 8 days no refined sugar and I begin to feel good, mentally… LOL! I’m still processing my emotional relationship with food and my past.

There are old memories that I never recalled before it’s begin to emerge vividly. And I’m going to let those memories reorganised itself into realisation when the timing is right. Right now, it’s all confusing, crashing and melancholic. Let’s see what happen next because I’m taking out rice from the diet too!

We are Grateful!

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