The Presence of the Subtle Power.

“The Subtle Power moves all things and has no name.” This is the excerpt from the book Power vs Force.

One thing that I realised is if we pay attention to our body, and beyond the mental thinking, we could feel there is aliveness moving through us and aliveness in everything.

Everything is alive even without a name. The moment we named it, we construct and conceptualize it into an object that represents something in this Universe. Name is important to establish recognition. However, at the same times, the mind most likely attaches to the names and its story. The mind is conditioned based on what it knows, and it usually creates some form of resistance towards what IS. Without awareness to realise the attachment to names, we give ourselves limitation to experience aliveness in everything.

Everything has its aliveness and the aliveness comes from the Subtle Power. Everything you can see, hear, touch, smell, taste and feel has a Subtle Power in it.

Love is aliveness. Fear is aliveness too. Peace is aliveness. So do Anger, Grief, Anxiety and Sadness. The chair that you sit on has its aliveness. The eyes that you are staring at, has its aliveness. All animate and inanimate object is alive at some point where the mind can’t think of. You can try to feel the presence without resisting the aliveness. First, try to feel the aliveness in your body because it all begins with your body.

And this is what we are here to experience; to witness the presence of the Subtle Power; whatever It means to you.

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Finally, I Met a Manifestor Who I Could Love.

Recently I’ve met a client who is a Manifestor. Our conversation started via WhatsApp, where she asked if she could have a session with me. I don’t know her energy type at the time but there is something repelled me away.

Now, as usual, the mind said “This client is tough. Not for you”. And as usual, my body says otherwise. I navigated the conversation in the best way I can and we decided to meet.

Less than a week later, we met at the Coffee Bean. The moment I saw her, I could feel a deep sense of Unconditional Love emerged in me and that Love knows her. It is not pity kind of love. She is having a tough journey at this moment and I’m not in a place to describe what she is going through. What I want to share is why do I feel so much Love towards this human being.

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What is a Manifestor?

First, let’s talk about Manifestor. There are four types of energy and Aura in the human being. Each type of Aura communicates differently with each other.

Manifestor’s aura communicates its impact on everyone around them. They have a very powerful aura that could have a huge impact on the world. Often, Manifestor doesn’t know their power and they don’t know how to use it wisely. George W.Bush is a Manifestor. The moment he decided to send US Army to Iraq and started a war, the impact lasted till today. Same goes for Hitler.

Now you know why I felt repelled in the first place.

From the perspective of other types, Manifestor’s Aura is not that friendly. It is not negative or bad. They are born in that way to protect their independence and power. Manifestor Aura protects them with the quality of*** closed and repelling aura***. Then again, their aura do that when the body feels the need to protect their power. Manifestor often has no clue how their Aura works.

When Manifestor meets Projector:

In the world where we don’t know our Aura and energy, and we don’t know how it works; Projectors often have a hard time in the presence of Manifestor. For Projector, their aura has a power to penetrate others in order to guide them. On the other hand, Manifestor has a closed Aura :).

Projector: Knock, knock! Let me in!
Manifestor: Go away!

However, I don’t feel that with this woman. I do feel her closed Aura but I don’t feel dismissed or rejected. My aura doesn’t feel that. Instead, I feel so much Universal Love towards her. Then I looked at her chart.

Unconditional Love; the explanation with Human Design.

First thing I noticed was. I’m in her fractal. I’m one of the people she is destined to meet. Human Design can show you who are the right people in your environment. So I told her; we are destined to meet each other.

For me, it feels like meeting a long-lost sister!

Second; I’m all about living life with Vitality, Joyfulness and Peace. Manifestor who awaken to their true self is the ambassador of Peace in this Universe. If they are not awakened, Manifestor is the figure of anger (and anger could create war. See the connection?)

Third; if I don’t know how my Aura works and I don’t trust how my Aura communicates for me, I won’t be meeting her and people who are correct for me. Anyway, our session was filled with Peace and Love (at least I felt it that way.)

The Beauty Of Non-Verbal Communication:

In Human Design, we are taught about non-verbal communication where our Aura does the talking for us. I’ve been experimenting with the accuracy of Human Design and I noticed how my communication improves over the time. My Aura speaks on behalf of me most of the time. It even attracts great people around the world to connect with me. And when these people connected with me, I get to live my purposes. It is magical to see the changes. I was once invisible and now, I work with people all around the world. My voice changed too. The vibration has so much power in it.

All of this happened because I understand my body, my aura, my mind and my Soul. Human Design just happens to give me a logical tool and knowledge for me to explore my Inner Power.

If you want to change your Life without changing who you are; give Human Design a try.

Four-Types-The-Manifestor-To-Live-a-Life-with-Peace-Ra-Uru-Hu-Human-Design-System.pngIf you are a Manifestor, let’s find out how to be the ambassador of Peace and not Anger.
If you are a Generator or Manifesting Generator, do you want to discover how to shift your frequency from frustration to satisfaction?
If you are a Projector, this is an invitation for you to know how to be successful in Life.
If you are a Reflector, come and join us and experience the wonder of surprises Life has for you.

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By the way;

Human Design is not a belief system, non-religion or not a personality test. It is a logical tool that tells you everything about yourself from your energy, aura to your diet and what is the best place to live your purposes. Human Design also provides an awakening program that awakens the power within your genes. I’m going to coach the awakening workshop too.

If you interested, I’m happy to help you to know Your True Self in an interactive discussion.

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What’s Behind Emotional Eating?

There is Light and Darkness in everything.

Yesterday morning I told a friend that I feel the need to eat, not because I’m hungry but because I feel there is an emotional need to eat. In the simple terms, we call it Emotional Eating.

I experienced this need from time to time and yesterday’s experience was difference. I noticed that the body doesn’t really want to eat; but the emotions crave for all sort of food that I can think of. At one point, I realise that the body was feeling hungry, but it just wants to settle for a simple food. The mind, which react as a spoke-person to the emotions, thinks I need something super delicious to feed my stomach. As an Undefined Emotion person, this is how my Not-Self avoiding confrontation too.

So, I stepped back and see where this feeling is coming from. There were subtle hatred, dislikes and dissatisfaction that associates with others, that I can’t get what I want on my terms (timing mostly), that I have everything I need at that moment, but it wasn’t enough. And these related to the dissatisfaction and it is some form of inner resistance towards Life.

Between feeling all this and that, there was a void behind all these. The void leads me to understand something; I woke up to a feeling that I don’t know what to do today even though I have lists of things that I need to do. The feeling that there is no flow to keep the energy moving that is torturing to the mind and therefore, set the emotions to feel discomfort.

This is what we do. Instead of sitting with this void and find out what it is, most of the time we have urges to fill the void with something (food, sex etc).

It is ridiculous as it seems, but this is what we all do from time to time and to an extend that we become numb to our emotions.

Instead of believing that I need to go out there and find myself with super delicious food, I let my Awareness figure out where this lead me to. I simply come to these conclusions:

Acknowledge What You Are Feeling.

The dissatisfaction that I feel is real. It probably a dormant feeling that hidden deep inside of me. Since it came up to the surface, maybe it’s time to sit with these feelings and see if it wants to heal.

What the Void Really Is?

The feeling of void and ‘no-flow’ is a classic sign of an Individual Energy Stream (Human Design related). In individual energy, the energy flow moves in pulses. There are days we feel like nothing can be done and there are days, it is moving like a lighting. It is the period of ‘no-flow’ that makes Life seems stagnant and in a void.

The truth is, there is creativity and awareness are fertilising through the process. We don’t see the seed become alive until it grows out of the soil as a sprout, do we? That doesn’t mean the seed is dead. It is the same thing with an Individual energy.

I have one stream of individual and experiencing a Channel of Mutation (60-3) in my Solar Return. I’m pretty much have to learn to work according to the flow. From my experiences, I produced creativity after a period of stagnation.

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The Rise of Human Spirit Consciousness.

We are in the era where the frequency of the Universe is setting us to increase our Spirit Consciousness and Emotional Awareness. The downside of this frequency is emotional eating, which reside in Gate 55 – The Gate of Spirit (Human Design). And Gate 55 is an individual energy that has fear of Emptiness. That’s the void that I feel. Emptiness over something.

If you look at the pattern around the world, this is where many people get obese or experience eating disorder too. How many people are dealing with fear of emptiness?

Now, we can’t escape the frequency because this is not some WIFI thing. This is how Universe govern itself. Being part of the Universe, we can only learn this through evolution and education.

But before we get there, we are just like bunch of babies that turn into our mothers for food and comfort.

So be wise when it comes to emotional eating. You know when you experience it. It’s okay to lose yourself and be emotionally moody about food and everything… but try to experience it with Awareness.

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Why Right Timing is Important.

Rose00.jpgAfter days of Emotional moodiness and anger, I walked out from the Gate 12 (Gate of Caution) transit with clarity. (What it means is; I walked out from my moodiness and emotional swing with clarity and glitters sprinkled on me).

One of the thing that I associate with this emotional swing is the constant mental torture that tells me to go back to Penang Island for Raya. I’m glad I trust my body (not the mind) and wait for the right timing to visit my hometown… because I finally see things rearranged itself.

I’m supposed to go back on 30th for my relative’s wedding but turned out, I made a promise to do public talk on that day in Kuala Lumpur. And I can’t change the date. So, I thought let’s go back this week but unfortunately, I got sore throat, flu and fever. My mind was so mad for not being able to go back.

In Human Design, my strategy is to wait for an Invitation. I had invitations to go back actually. So, this is no longer an issue. What is the challenge then?

TIMING.

Why is timing important?

Right timing will ensure that we flow in harmony with Life. Which means, there is less resistance when we do it at the right timing. Sounds crazy yes? Well, if you live in my body, you will understand that the only way you can get what you want in life without so many obstacles and pains and frustrations and angers and bitterness or even disappointments… is timing.

Basically, timing is all about living effortlessly. Universe gets things done through YOU and through your body (through the mind and innate intelligence).

I’m no master of timing. I’m learning to surrender and with Human Design, I get to apply it better. This is some level of spirituality and yet, I’m not a spiritual master or what so ever.

How Do I Know When Is the Right Timing?

I know it through my Authority. I am a Splenic Authority. My inner truth or inner guide is my body awareness. In Human Design, we called it Splenic Authority. Everyone has one unique Authority and yours is different than mine. You can check it out through this website.

My Splenic Authority works spontaneously in the Now and it all concern about my safety, health and survival. Remember that I want to go back to Penang Island and I have the invitation and I have someone who wanted to pay for the hotel and yet I decided not to go back. That’s because, as much as my mind wants to go back, my body awareness felt that it is not safe for me to travel because the body needs a lot of rest after being sick for few days.

Despite emotional waves overrides my Splenic intuition, I still feel a deep sense that I need to wait. This is not just about the health of my body but it’s about timing too.

What Now?

I’m seeing a clear green light to be in Penang on 30th June onwards unless something comes up and turn the journey the other way around. As a Splenic Authority, moment to moment is always about health and surviving. And with my Undefined Heart and Undefined Throat, I have no way to tell when things going to happen for me.

Surrender to Life.

Living effortlessly means enjoy the ride in this Life without trying to take control over it. Our body knows how to do this. Our mind doesn’t. The more the mind tries to control the body, the more the pain occurs in the body. Maybe body intelligence or innate intelligence is something people don’t believe in. But if we speak to our body and know our body well, we will see the truth within this beautiful vehicle we called the body. Human Design is a system that shows you what your body capable of doing and how to align your mind with your body.

So, let’s see how things unfold. From my experiences, especially when I’m practising to surrender and follow my Human Design, my life is exciting, colourful and sometimes… feels so surreal 🙂

Rose01.jpgAnyway, this is one good quote I picked up from the book I read; Women, Food and God by Geneen Roth. It reminds me that only through waiting, we are able to see the whole picture of the event which consists of This, That and the Absolute Truth. Enjoy!

Enlightenment was following one thing all the way to the end.
~~ Shunryu Suzuki Roshi

How We Drained Our Energy Over Small Talk?

Why I Am Not Interested in Small Talk?

I had a great conversation with a friend who had an opposite view about small talk. Both of us have Undefined Throat. If you don’t know what Undefined Throat is; it means we have an inconsistent energy to communicate or to act. Sounds bad, isn’t it? Well, it is not bad. Undefined Throat people have the flexibility in communication and action. For example; Celine Dion is an Undefined Throat person and she is a great performer.

One thing you need to know about Throat centre is, all our energies are going to channel out through the throat. For Undefined Throat like me, I would feel drained if I overuse my throat energy. Therefore, to conserve the energy, I speak when I need to and most of the conversation is educational. Now, is that boring? Maybe to some people. I used to have a friend who called me boring because I no longer entertain small talks.

Here Is the Reason Why.

I’m a person who is picky about small talk because I feel that small talk drains my energy, especially I am an Undefined Throat person. I noticed the same patterns in human collective. What I see in many people is, they wasted too much of their energies on unnecessary small talks especially with people they don’t love.

Every single time we talk, energy is used for that matter. By the time they need to get their act done, they have no energy to do so because all of it is wasted on small talk. If we to combine all the small talks in the world, it will be too many noises with only small gap for the Stillness.

Do I Completely Avoid Small Talk?

I love small talks, with people I love and when we have coffee together. I do small talks with my Chiropractor too. And I love to laugh. Any small talks that can make me laugh, I’m on it. I think it is lovely when we do it with people we love. I guess this is what Tribal all about.

There is more to learn about our Throat centre; the source of sounds and door to all manifestation in this world. Everyone is different, and yet it takes same awareness to notice the right timing in communication and manifestation.

These are my small talks for today; chocolate chips cookies dreams, uncut chicken dreams, a selfie in the kitchen and a cat on someone’s head. It is hilarious! And all that gives me some boost to write about this topic.

Now I think it would be great to sit on that couch with a cup of coffee and a box of chocolate chips cookies as a reward for the post. Anyone… wanna join me?

Photo taken at Bangsar Shopping Center.

 

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Struggles are Empowering.

Yesterday was the busiest day so far. I’m currently running three projects. One is under my own company. The other two are for people I work with where my skills are shared as a Personel Manager (Gate 17). Basically, my skills are used for structuring flow for their coaching businesses, seeing their goals, share my perspectives, and doing few other kinds of stuff.

These are one of my best experiences for doing what I love and for the recognitions that others give to me.

All that busyness is flow and support for my education fund and also for the living. Within this busyness, I get to make friends with many people and see their perspectives about Life. And the beauty is I get to experience the value of Awareness in those moments.

I believe everyone has their own struggles. I surely have mine. Born with the channel of Struggle (38-28) in my design; I experience tremendous struggle since I was a kid. What I can tell you is, with struggles, we have the potentials to live our purposes; only if we could remove the negative value from the word ‘Struggle’.

Anyway, that’s one delicious Salted Beef Sandwich I had yesterday at Rubberduck Cafe during work meeting with a friend. It is highly recommended for beef lover.

*Photo was taken at Rubberduck Cafe at Plaza Damas KL.

My day started at 6 am yesterday to attend a class and two meetings in the evening, one report for a client and two naps. Yes! I love my naps :).

Finding Your Root.

What are your roots?

One thing I love about Human Design is it tells you what is the best environment that you can fulfil your purposes. Within these environments, if you live correctly as yourself, you are going to stand out in that environment. You are going to stand strong because you know your root. If you don’t know your root, you become the environment, and nobody can see you because you are living the frequency of the environment.

For example; one of my environments is filled with emotional stuff. That means I can only live my purposes in the presence of emotions; that include emotional pain, dramas, passions, sensuality, sexual, confrontation, traumas and so on.

Imagine what happens if I didn’t live at my own frequency? I surely become the drama and the emotional pain itself and no one could see me or feel my presence. I have no way to be the guide for them.

Ever since I follow my strategy and authority, I stand out more in this environment. I get to be the guide for those who need to feel emotional peace.

My task for this year is to learn about the confrontation that comes from this environment. All I can say that this is just a beginning. I already feel the pressure in many ways :).

Find your roots, know your environment and let your True-Self flowering in this life.

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A Projector’s Dream, Movement Between Dimensions.

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I’m a Projector who turns into Reflector when I sleep (Dream Rave)I’m also a Quad Right variable (Human Design Variable). To date, I have no further information about my Dream Rave or about my variable; e.g. how my dreams work when I sleep or how sensitive I become when I close my eyes. Despite knowing less information in this area, I continue observing my dreams and its pattern.

This morning I experienced something new…something really different. It’s not the dream but the process of how I get out of the dream. This going to be a long post and I treated it as a journal rather than as formal article. This going to be something to look back one day (for whatever reason). Here you go.

I was in deep sleep and I dreamed my parent’s old house in Penang Island. It felt all pleasant and good (old house usually gave me eerie dreams).

Outside of the dream, my body woke up because it heard a loud sound of a big bike in front of the house. I associated loud motorcycles’ engine with robbers (past trauma). And as a Splenic being (a person who has survival intelligence as her authority of life), my body is very instinctively alert, so that explained why it woke up.

But I was still dreaming at the time. At least my mind did. So, I didn’t open my eyes. A part of me aware that I’m not in a dream, that I’m lying on a bed 400 km away from the old house… but I don’t think my mind realise that.

I say that because my mind could not figure out the house I’m living right now; I don’t remember where I am, and I couldn’t ‘see’ the actual house I’m living through my inner vision. But deep inside I know I live here. With my eyes still close, I tried to recall my current house. But all I saw was the old house. I tried to look outside, and I saw the old road in front of the house.

I was like “oh shit!”. I forced to remember but fail. I have this feeling that I can get disoriented if I open my eyes when my mind still not here. So, I keep my eyes close and gently let the mind takes in the information from the body. I know it will remember when it gets what the body is feeling. It will remember when the mind aligns with the body, so to speak.

Slowly the first thing I saw and felt is the bedroom. Then the living hall. I could see the old house living hall slowly disappeared and was replaced with the current living hall. Then the door opened, I still see the old road but the garden started to emerge, then the porch and the old road slowly faded away. At last, I remember where I am. I finally felt everything about the house. And I opened my eyes; fully awake from the dream.

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The Channel of Abstraction – A design of Mental Activity Mixed with Clarity.

As usual, I’m processing the experience by reflecting the past. With Gate 64 (Confusion and pressure to resolve the past) in my conscious design and Gate 47 (Realisation), this is what I had in mind.

What happened here was my body woke up because it thought there might be a robbery happened in the neighbourhood. Every single time I heard loud engine from a motorcycle, I woke up. Having a Splenic Intelligence as my inner guide, it is its instinct to keep me safe in this dimension. The only difference this time was my mind was still sleeping, therefore it still experiencing the dream dimension.

Somehow, I could observe things that happened. I believe the observation comes from my Awareness; something beyond the mind and body.

Something to think about… for fun.

When we experience sleep paralysis, it is the body that still sleeping, and the mind wakes up first. In this case, was it the reverse of sleep paralysis? Is this like Lucid Dream? Tell me what do you think? I never had Lucid Dream, therefore I don’t know how lucid dream works.

We could argue that maybe the mind keeps thinking about the dream, therefore it seems real. But remember that I could not recall any memory of the current house or where I am except that I’m aware I live in a different house.

Fascinating isn’t it? If our mind experience past, present and future in one space, then what I just experienced this morning was movement between dimensions (dreams and earth) in one space with my body grounded in the present moment. And I didn’t get the panic feeling like sleep paralysis.

And the fact that I dreamed something pleasant in my deep sleep; that’s wonderful. Nevertheless, we have to consider the effects of the neutrinos and Universe programming (the Maia) through the planetary transit and sharing space with other auras especially when we are sleeping.

Morning Rain

Humanity are now have access to all spectrum of emotions. It’s not we don’t feel emotions before. We do. But now we have access to it with Awareness. We are experiencing our emotions from a different level of consciousness.

In the process, pain felt more intense. So does Peace. Do know that if we feel pain and suffering inside of us, we also could feel Peace and Love within us.

Universe has its way to help human going through suffering, only when they are willing to embrace the presence moment. Use rainy day to understand your emotions. Rain is water, so does emotions. Let the Universe frequency helps you become conscious of your Self.

Feel your emotions wherever you are. Even if rainy days make you grumpy and angry, feels it. I’m not guiding you to be positive. I’m guiding you to become aware of your emotional intelligence.

Breathe and be alive from within.

Anyway, this is my kind of morning. I Love morning rain so far. It makes me feel peace, joyful and creative.

The Art of Waiting

Since this afternoon, I’ve been feeling about something. It feels like an act of doing but there is no pressure of doing it yet. I can feel the energy is there, waiting for the right timing. To me it feels like a seed is ready to show its first leaf but we don’t know when is the exact moment it will emerge from the soil. So we going to have to wait. This feeling is like waiting for a grand surprise by the Universe.

So I’m going to wait and see what is going to show up. And if it’s correct and safe for my body (Splenic Authority), this pressure is going to be manifested into a beautiful work of art and joy, as it already Is.

Good night beautiful souls. Anchor your Awareness through your body and be present now.