Love and Pain Through the Morning Breeze.

There was a depressing feeling visited me two days ago. I was lying on the bed and there was a pressure wanting to flow but couldn’t and it has no direction to go too.

I picked a book from the office and I went to the living hall. I sat on the couch with the wooden door wide open and I let the afternoon breeze flew in. I didn’t concentrate on the book that much. My awareness was shifting between the book and the depression. The day went like that until I feel tired at night.

There is something beautiful in this process when we allow it to be. After a day feeling depressed, I realised a pattern and possible a trauma that probably still living inside of me. I feel so much Love today and so much pain at the same time. These two seems like dancing in perfect rhythm, not separating.

My body feeling sore. Gently, I moved my body through yoga, stretching through the pain. Morning breeze showered me with unconditional Love, which helped me feel calm. Through the day, I’m seeing more of the trauma, more of the emotional pain that I went through for many years.

Pain and trauma takes time to heal. If you ever go through the same thing, where pain manifested as pain-body, where the pressure feels too much for you… do know that you are not alone. It’s okay to feel the pain. Do know that it comes with Love, just like every shadow has light shining from the other side.

Stay strong! Be gentle with yourself.
I Love YOU, wherever you are ❤

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Human Design: Projector – The New Leaders.

Projectors! It’s time to claim your power.

Human Design Experience and Human Design Malaysia are going to do 2 days mini-course about Projector and their gift as a leader.

Your Aura speaks more accurately about you than your mind. Ra described that, as Projectors, our aura is our business card.

How well do you trust your aura? Are you ready to guide others who are waiting in your fractal?

One of the subject we will talk in this 2 days (over 2 weekends) is effective communication as Projectors. We also will explore the aspect of relationship as Projectors.

Come and join us for 2 days mini-course on Projectors. You can PM us for more info or visit our website to reserve your seat. The mini-course is via live online classes:

https://www.roselifecoach.com/projector-the-new-leaders

“When a Projector goes into somebody’s aura, they tap into the aura field, not the person. Not the person’s identity, per se. They tap into that larger self, which is why they can handle the conditioning.

The thing is that if they’re not operating correctly, if they haven’t entered into whatever the generic experience is by invitation, then they can be and will be drawn away from their motivation. And when they don’t see correctly you’re killing a Projector. You might as well put them out to pasture and forget it” – Ra Uru Hu

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90 days of Wildfit Challenge.

Final Results.

text15.png7 days ago was the last day for my 90 days of WildFit Challenge. I’m impressed with the way my body is making the progress. Since my Authority is Splenic, everything is about my body consciousness. There were countless of damages I did to this body through food.

WildFit provides me with the opportunity to heal and to decondition from food and emotional eating. And the best part is, WildFit trains me to be aware of the foods and the seasons.

Last night during our zoom call, IshKiia asked how much total loss that I experienced. Here’s the result.

I’ve lost a total of 84.09 cm (33.11 inches). The biggest loss is the fat on my hips from 138 cm down to 98 cm. Total KG loss is 6 kg (from 68 to 62 kg). I was told that it is okay to lose more inches than weight. I Am Grateful for that too because to lose inches means the body is cycling out the old fat and toxin.

WildFit is not a diet program. From my experience, it’s a spiritual and healing program for the body through food. WildFit certainly enhances my state of awareness towards food and the food industry. My biggest gain is the gift to look at coconut rice and not feeling a deep emotional craving to it. That’s freedom!

Again, I Am so Grateful for the journey. And Thank you for the support given by Dr. Tay Ju LeeIshKiia and the rest of the group. They are the best!

Photo 1-2: Wildfit results.
Photo 3: Before Wildfit, weight was around 68-69 kg.
Photo 4: Taken in 2017 with a weight ranging between 69-70 kg.

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Root Center and How I Release Pressure.

I will be doing a series of throwback posts, all about my stay and classes that I did in Penang Island. So the time that I mention will not be the current ones.

“What do we need to do when we feel the physical pressure turning into stress? This is a short info about the Root Center. We are going to talk about Root Center and its pressure this weekend Living Your Design Workshop in Bayan Baru.

Here’s my morning walk for today. As a Splenic being, my body know what to do to reduce the pressure ❤. How about you?”

Location Botanical Garden, Penang Island.

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Human Design – Two Sides of Everything.

Photo taken in Tropicana City Mall.

While some teaching glorify enlightenment and positivity, Life is entirely a different trip.

Everything in this Maia is in duality. Holy books like the Quran says that too. I remember it in some phrases stated that Life is created in duality and is an illusion. There is duality in every individual. It is not about good or bad, it is simply a presence in the Maia as it Is.

In every word you see or hear, there is duality in it. It all depends on how you see it or hear it or programmed to interpret it. It also depends on the state of consciousness we are at on the individual level and also collectively.

If you happen to learn something that only chooses one side, then you are living an imbalanced life. There is no Love or grace in that. You can choose a side (sometimes we have no choice when we are drawn to a certain frequency), but at least open to seeing the other side too.

text15.pngSomething I learned about Human Design is Duality. Human Design is not a spiritual belief or religions. It is a knowledge that gives the layout of the Maia and its duality through our own design (body, mind, soul – laymen term).

What I love about Human Design is, it shows me at least two sides of every human or every being I interact. I may dislike some side of them (or some side of me) but it teaches me to embrace every presence, every aura and every physical body I meet in this journey.

Maybe this is the time to Love two sides of everything. How about starting with ourselves? How about accepting our own duality? How about cherish our weaknesses as much as we cherish our strength?

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Human Design – 2 days LYD Awakening Workshop.

My First LYD Class in A Group.

This is my first time conducting 2 days Living Your Design Awakening Workshop. Ra did say that LYD is best to do it in 2 days; which focus on the deconditioning and shattering the Not-Self layer we have in our Nine-Centered system.

From my experiences, 2 days workshop has its own uniqueness, so does 8-10 weeks awakening via Online Classes. Those who like to take it slow, weekly program is highly recommended. Those who are quick, you can opt for 2 days workshop.

For Projectors, never underestimate your power when you received correct invitations.

Being a Projector with Undefined Throat, I never thought I can pull this. Furthermore, this was done through invitation, therefore, it gives me access to correct energy and get it done.

On top of that, I learned to manage my energy gracefully and intuitively (Splenic authority here). The experiences were amazing. I also get to see how my Incarnation Cross and my noded fulfilling the purpose.

Hope to do this again. Thank you for the amazing experiences. I Am Grateful.

Next; Self Transformation with Human Design session in Penang Island, this Sunday, 28th April, 3pm in ITPA. PM us to book your seat.

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Human Design – Sleep in Your Own Aura.

My Little Niece, 10 years ago.

If you want to wake up as your Self, you need to sleep in your own aura (sleeping alone). This goes to all Types (Manifestor, Generator/MG, Projector and Reflector). The reason is Conditioning. We are deeply programmed by the Maia even when we are sleeping.

Especially for the Projectors. This is the only type that is easily conditioned by others and the environment. Therefore, sleeping in the same space with others will make Projectors wake up acting like others without they know it.

For example, when a Projector sleeping with a Generator or a Manifesting Generator, the Projector will wake up thinking about work and doing. That also means the Projector wakes up against her/his nature. All Projectors true nature should be about guiding energies, not working the energies. The deep programming on Projectors during their sleep can make others see the Projectors as an energy worker rather than a gifted guide. This is one of the reasons why many Projectors end up working a long hours job.

Remember conditioning means Programming. And it happens to all Types, with Projectors suffer the most from it. Imagine waking up being programmed as somebody else. This is where we get Generators thinking they are a Manifestor, and Manifestor thinking they need to respond, Projectors become super slaves, and Reflector gets confused about everything.

There is no way to know your Self until you sleep in your own aura. There is no way to know your gifts until you wake up every morning as YOU.

The photo was taken 10 years ago. She is my niece, a baby Projector. She is 2/4 RAX of The Four Ways. She is designed to be an inspirational thinker, a secret hearer and a democratic leader.

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Human Design – Coffee,Coffee,Coffee…

That’s not my coffee!

I didn’t have my coffee for 6 weeks (I guess). Surely it’s been more than a month. At one point, I did take a tiny sip from a non-sugar long black to make my mouth bitter after I ate a cooked salmon.

You know what’s funny, I’m not really a coffee drinker. I can’t even finish a cup of coffee and often have to share it with my friends. But when something we used to have it and it is taken away from us, we gonna missed it. So I missed my half cup long black coffee!

Furthermore, I have some emotional relation to coffee.

This is also the reason why I missed my coffee. My late mother was a coffee drinker and oh! She took coffee like plain water. She started every morning with black coffee and she has a specific local brand (which Joe and I continuing using the same brand). Her best friend, Aunt Linda (my god-mom) will come to the house and drink it with her. She will have coffee for tea time and sometimes dinner.

A few days before she passed away, she asked if she could have her black coffee. The entire family was freaked out because her health was getting worse and I wasn’t around to witness whether she did have her coffee or not. Knowing my mom, she probably had it.

When I decode the emotional attachment towards coffee, what I see is, coffee makes my late mom happy. When she’s happy, I’m happy. I’m guessing, I carry that unconscious expectation when I’m with others especially with Joe. I know coffee makes her happy.

Is that necessary to make people happy at the expense of my health?

Here’s the answer. I’m a Projector Type human being. When my Generator or Manifesting Generator folks feel happy and satisfy, my world is colourful! I’m drinking it together with them because that’s what I did with my late mom.

Plus, have you seen Malaysian social culture? We love coffee places (from Mamak to Starbucks)! So it’s all social conditioning, which Projectors are deeply attuned to. And nothing is wrong with it. It’s a mundane life after all.

Since I’m on emotional healing through foods, this realisation helps me to be more aware. I may drink coffee after the 90 Days WildFit Challenge and back to the routine again… Or, I may not. That, I will leave it to my Splenic Authority (how I make every decision through my body intelligence). I guess we’ll find out soon!

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Human Design – Is Being Emotional Bad?

Emotional Being.

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Emotional Manifesting Generator, 2/5

Now it’s time to talk about Defined Solar Plexus and Emotional People. There are 50% of the population are emotional being. The rest are Open Emotion.

Often we think being emotional is bad, but not for these people. They earn their emotions. In fact, this is their Authority; their Inner Power that guides them especially in making decisions.

Emotions are powerful. So are Emotional Defined people. It is not about the strength of the body but the power of their emotions to emote feeling, to manifest creativity through their moodiness, and to support their tribes through bonding and bargain. These people can be so warm and passionate about life, about themselves and about others too. They also can be the opposite of it.

And their power lies on ClarityWhy clarity? Their emotions are moving energy. Every time their feeling changes, their perspective changes. The way they see others and life change from time to time. They need to see the collection of these perspectives so they can gain clarity.

But that’s their true challenge; it’s hard to be patient and wait for clarity. Often they are rushing on their impulses, thinking it just a fleeting emotion and unimportant. As an undefined emotion, I amplify the impulses and what I see is just a blurry event ahead of them.

The only way to deal with Emotional Solar Plexus is to be with the waves. This is how you wait for clarity as Emotional Defined person. Embrace and accept every high and low feeling that you have. Feel the power of every wave and see how your Emotional Intelligence communicates with you.

Collect as much clarity as you can. Clarity will show what’s correct for you. Time and patience are your allies. It’s time you make peace with it.

Anyway, enjoy surfing your highest intelligence. And do know that I acknowledge and embrace your presence in my life. With you (all the emotional being), I learn to see the beauty in every emotional joy and pain. And for that, I say Thank You.

Take this as your mantra: Never walk your life blindfolded.

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Human Design – Listen and Observe.

Good morning beautiful souls!

Whether you are Defined Ajna or Undefined Ajna, practice to observe your thoughts is a powerful process of awakening.

Step out of thinking doesn’t mean you stop thinking. In fact, trying tAll Postso stop thinking is madness especially if you are a Defined Ajna person.

Imagine your thoughts like a friend you have and this friend loves to talk. What you normally do when your friend is talking? The best form of friendship is listening without judgement.

Same with your thoughts and mind. Listen and observe without reacting to every words your thoughts is saying. This practice is a form of meditation.

You (The Observer), observing your thoughts (the mind and its voices).

Remember that the practice is not to identify you as your thoughts. You are more than what your mind is thinking. In Human Design, your mind can only relate on the Personality Level (the Black color gates). But your wholeness is Black and Red (Personality and Design).

This is what we do in Living Your Design Awakening Program too. We (the guides) guide you to observe what your mind says about you, particularly about your open centers… because in the openness is where it likely to drive you crazy as a not self.

Personally this practice helps me with anxiety, depression and also in my awakening through Human Design.

You can do it right now. The tips is… pay attention to it without judgement or react towards the thoughts. Give it a try.

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