Flying Taught Me One Thing.

My first flight experience was ten years ago from Kuala Lumpur to Kuching; alone! I was a frequent traveller who took a bus from Penang to Kuala Lumpur or to the south. Not to mention that sometimes I experienced anxiety during travelling. So, imagine what it might do to me when I found out that I have to take a flight alone to Kuching. Out of excitement and invitation, I gained some courage and I decided to give it a try.

I sat by the window and the passenger who sat next to me was a guy. A friend mentally prepared me before the flight. She asked me to chew something, so I don’t get discomfort by the pressure. When she got to the part where “there is a bag if you need to vomit”, boy that triggered the anxiety. Anyway, I did whatever she told me. I thought I will be anxious or worse screaming when the flight takes off or when I had to vomit. Guess what happen?

I clapped my hands with full of excitement and said “Yayyyy!” just like a five years old kid. The guy next to me was surprised by my sudden excitement. I told him “My first time”.

The moment I reached Kuching’s airport, I called my friend.
“I’m not going to travel by bus anymore!” One word at the time.

I love flying, even I do feel a little anxious about it. The feeling is probably collective. Anyway, whenever I fly, I get to see a different perspective on Life.

Human nowadays have the capacity to view life, not just horizontal and from vertical view. Thanks to the Wright brothers for the invention of the aeroplane and people who built the rocket to space. The further and higher we get, the more information field we explore in terms of self-reflecting consciousness.

Try this. When you are in the sky flying, look down at the Earth. This is how nature, the clouds, the birds, the rains, the thunders, the Universe is looking at us. See the Life and feels it. You gonna enjoy the perspectives.

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Grief – Who We Actually Miss?

Last night we talked about Grief. There were noises in the background, but it subsided to almost silent during the conversation. We pondered about grief; why the feeling is heavy and why sometimes we grief over someone who is not even in our inner circle.At that moment, I realised we have the same grief. I lost a friend in December 2016 and I grief till today. The grief is small and sometimes subtle. I know it’s a grief because I would stare deep into my inner space and try to fill the emptiness. Most of the time, the mind is occupied by self-guilt, but space remain empty.I love taking photos of empty chairs. It gives me the sense of space; the same space I’m staring into. Imagine those people who sat on these chairs during the day and they left during the night. If this is how death looks like, what are we missing here?During the conversation, this came out right from my lips. “What we miss is their presence (physical) and now it just an empty space”. We don’t connect much with Souls. We are a physical creature. Physical presence, the body itself make so much difference in this world. That’s what we missed. The rest come and go together with the body including the expression of love, the voice, the touch, everything about the body.That’s the most torturing feeling about grief’; longing for the body to be around. However, if we take grief with a touch of Spirituality, we would understand that Space is never Empty. The presence is always there. The essence of the energy body is right there. It’s just they appeared in a different form.Whenever I see empty chairs, I feel a deep sense of Peace and I would capture the moments through the lens. It’s okay to grieve. I no longer shed tears over her passing. I don’t think I even have tears to grieve. All I do is accepting the space I feel whenever I think of her.

That space is Love. I wish her Peace, wherever she is now.

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A Projector’s Dream, Movement Between Dimensions.

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I’m a Projector who turns into Reflector when I sleep (Dream Rave)I’m also a Quad Right variable (Human Design Variable). To date, I have no further information about my Dream Rave or about my variable; e.g. how my dreams work when I sleep or how sensitive I become when I close my eyes. Despite knowing less information in this area, I continue observing my dreams and its pattern.

This morning I experienced something new…something really different. It’s not the dream but the process of how I get out of the dream. This going to be a long post and I treated it as a journal rather than as formal article. This going to be something to look back one day (for whatever reason). Here you go.

I was in deep sleep and I dreamed my parent’s old house in Penang Island. It felt all pleasant and good (old house usually gave me eerie dreams).

Outside of the dream, my body woke up because it heard a loud sound of a big bike in front of the house. I associated loud motorcycles’ engine with robbers (past trauma). And as a Splenic being (a person who has survival intelligence as her authority of life), my body is very instinctively alert, so that explained why it woke up.

But I was still dreaming at the time. At least my mind did. So, I didn’t open my eyes. A part of me aware that I’m not in a dream, that I’m lying on a bed 400 km away from the old house… but I don’t think my mind realise that.

I say that because my mind could not figure out the house I’m living right now; I don’t remember where I am, and I couldn’t ‘see’ the actual house I’m living through my inner vision. But deep inside I know I live here. With my eyes still close, I tried to recall my current house. But all I saw was the old house. I tried to look outside, and I saw the old road in front of the house.

I was like “oh shit!”. I forced to remember but fail. I have this feeling that I can get disoriented if I open my eyes when my mind still not here. So, I keep my eyes close and gently let the mind takes in the information from the body. I know it will remember when it gets what the body is feeling. It will remember when the mind aligns with the body, so to speak.

Slowly the first thing I saw and felt is the bedroom. Then the living hall. I could see the old house living hall slowly disappeared and was replaced with the current living hall. Then the door opened, I still see the old road but the garden started to emerge, then the porch and the old road slowly faded away. At last, I remember where I am. I finally felt everything about the house. And I opened my eyes; fully awake from the dream.

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The Channel of Abstraction – A design of Mental Activity Mixed with Clarity.

As usual, I’m processing the experience by reflecting the past. With Gate 64 (Confusion and pressure to resolve the past) in my conscious design and Gate 47 (Realisation), this is what I had in mind.

What happened here was my body woke up because it thought there might be a robbery happened in the neighbourhood. Every single time I heard loud engine from a motorcycle, I woke up. Having a Splenic Intelligence as my inner guide, it is its instinct to keep me safe in this dimension. The only difference this time was my mind was still sleeping, therefore it still experiencing the dream dimension.

Somehow, I could observe things that happened. I believe the observation comes from my Awareness; something beyond the mind and body.

Something to think about… for fun.

When we experience sleep paralysis, it is the body that still sleeping, and the mind wakes up first. In this case, was it the reverse of sleep paralysis? Is this like Lucid Dream? Tell me what do you think? I never had Lucid Dream, therefore I don’t know how lucid dream works.

We could argue that maybe the mind keeps thinking about the dream, therefore it seems real. But remember that I could not recall any memory of the current house or where I am except that I’m aware I live in a different house.

Fascinating isn’t it? If our mind experience past, present and future in one space, then what I just experienced this morning was movement between dimensions (dreams and earth) in one space with my body grounded in the present moment. And I didn’t get the panic feeling like sleep paralysis.

And the fact that I dreamed something pleasant in my deep sleep; that’s wonderful. Nevertheless, we have to consider the effects of the neutrinos and Universe programming (the Maia) through the planetary transit and sharing space with other auras especially when we are sleeping.

Let’s Talk About Human Design.

Yesterday someone asked my what do I do as a life coach, so I decided to share this knowledge that I used for my coaching, it’s call Human Design System. Here goes!

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I bet my readers from the Western countries already open to the knowledge of Human Design. For us, in Asian, Human Design is quite new. If I didn’t hang out with my Western friends in the public forum like corefreedom.com, I wouldn’t know such knowledge.

Nevertheless, let’s talk about Human Design. Let’s go the way others didn’t go.

The Energetic Fingerprint.

We all know that our finger prints are different. But when people tell us we all are the same in sense of will power, motivation, behavior, thinking and reaction towards achieving success; we kinda settle for the idea. And because of it, we struggle to be like others. We want to fit in.

The problem about fitting in is, it pulls us away from being our Authentic Self. In order to fit in, one must be completely like the others. Otherwise, we fail to fit in! And we think our problem (when we can’t fit in) is because we are less than others. It’s sad to think that way. Not to mention the struggles and failures!

It all happen because we do not know our Authenticity.

Our finger prints are our Authenticity. We cannot alter it. But finger prints are physical manifestation of our Authentic Self. What about non-physical authenticity? How do we know our differences?

Do You Know Your Authenticity Self?

I’ve been searching for my authenticity for years. First, I know that I’m an Empath. But how I define Empath, energetically? How does Empath actually look like energetically? Then I discovered that I’m intuitive. Which part of me can defined that?

Thanks to Human Design, which I discovered in 2013, lay out a blueprint of my energetic designs. In that chart, I know what I am, what’s my domain personality, how my energy body flows, where it should go, what I shouldn’t do (it is all energetically speaking) and what are my roles in this world? It tells me why I am here and what I can do to live my life to the fullest?

Because of Human Design, I know the Empath trait in me, I found out why I’m intuitive. And I also came to acknowledge why people think I’m kinda annoyed and freak! And I don’t feel sorry for myself anymore. In fact, I’m loving every part of me, from the mind to the Soul.

So long story short, Human Design is a Science of Differentiation between human. The differences can be in many ways and all is shown in a simple Rave Chart (well! It’s not that simple anyway).

What Made Human Design System Mostly Accurate?

Human Design are the combination of modern and traditional knowledge, which consists of Astrology, the Kabbalah, the I`Ching (which the 64 gates come from) and the Chakra System. The part where the modern science came in is the reading of the Genetic Code. You can read more of the explanation in the Internet.

As a human being, we are very complex creature. There is no simple way to explain our being without combination from all aspects including the inner aspect like the genetic codons, the energy body like the aura and the Universe energy like the impact of planets’ energy on us. So, Human Design is a very complex system and yet, it reveals the simplicity of knowing our vessel (the body and its energy) and our Inner Self.

What Human Design Can Tell Us?

If you get your FREE Rave Chart at http://www.jovianarchive.com, you’ll discover basic information about your Type, Profile, Not-Self Theme (in the other words, your dominant setback), Definition, Incarnation Cross and the most important part is your Authority.

Beyond the basic information, you have extra information from the whole chart and it is complex. The chart doesn’t explain everything in detail. You can either read and discover the information through the internet or you can get experts who knows Human Design to explain the chart for you.

Around the whole charts, Human Design can explain two main things about your entire energy system:

  1. The Openness centers. We called it Undefined Centers. These are the centers where you unconsciously live as Not-Self (the conditioned self).
  2. The Defined centers. These are your Authentic energy. You have the access to the energy around the clock. However, we normally unaware of our Define centers because our Openness centers are more overwhelming.

According to this finding, if we don’t know this knowledge, we might life our whole life through the conditioned self and thinking that’s who we are!

But is knowing this important?

It depends.

  1. People who are successful, doesn’t really go and find out their Human Design. That is because they already live their Authenticity Self in the first place. Human Design is just a platform that provides us the structured information about our Authenticity.
  2. If you are a Projector, it is essential that you learn about your signature. For some reasons, Projectors are those who always live as somebody else, they are the failures ones and they get sick before the age of 40s (I got sick by age 32).
  3. If you are the Manifestor, you should know how to control your thoughts.

The rest, I feel it is important for you to know who you are. What you will do with the information is up to you.

Is This What I Am? Does This Design Change from Time to Time?

This is your energetic signature. Just like your finger prints, it doesn’t change until you die (I was looking for politer word but naaah!). It says that if you experience Near Death or if you practice meditation for more than 30 years, it might change. But there’s not many information to explain in detail. So intuitively, I feel that the changes might happen on the gates.

Will You Like Your Design?

This is funny. The first time I came to know that I’m a Projector, I feel so down and frustrated. Hey! I run a business. I have a lot of ideas how to be successful. But Human Design says, I have to wait for the invitation! How could I wait?! I was screaming inside my head and I tried to convince myself that whatever Human Design was saying is a total crap!

Not long after that I found another article says that I need to sleep alone! I was having difficulties sleeping alone because I was afraid of darkness. I had nightmares! The first few weeks, knowing Human Design is a mood killer.

Then I saw the beauty in it. The clarity of Who I Am. The understanding of my flow and why I always imitate others. And I fall in love.

What is The Most Precious Information I Found About Myself?

All pieces of information are important for you. In my case, the most precious is knowing I’m on the right path. I started Your Personal Motivator coaching service because I love to help people. Turn out my chart revealed that would be an ideal path for me. Other than that, would be knowing my intuition channel, which lies in gate 57. And the chart also explain why I can see patterns and tap into insightful knowledge and how to share it with the world.

If you ever find out your Human Design, pay attention to the Strategy and Authority first. Live by that Design!

Friction is an Art of Bonding.

There are so many ways where love comes around and relationships are built. Sometimes it comes around in some unexpected ways. It is illogical to say that relation could grow beautifully through a healthy confrontation, friction and tension. Process like this comes around, not just to test the strength of the relationship but bring up the growth through the friction.

First, let’s learn about friction because it is the door to passionate love and confrontation. We can learn about friction from the nature first. Before the plants can grow, the seeds will go through the friction, so it can emerge from underneath the soil. The plants within its intelligence knew that to survive, it must get the sunlight. Farmers musts wait for the seeds to turn into sprouts itself.

The seeds must go through friction itself. All plants and flowers that we see around us went through some friction, just to exist beautifully in this world.

In human, friction happens in many ways. When two people wanting to know each other, our auric field will go through friction. The process is expressed through our behaviours and communication.

Try observing people who are in love and look at the way they are flirting. That is some form of friction. When one auric field wanting to co-exist in the same space with another auric field, we get friction. After all, we are energies in motion. Friction is inevitable.

Friction is an art of Bonding. Without friction, we have no interest to bond with others. We don’t have to learn about it. It comes naturally when our auric field in contact with others. Flirting is just one aspect of friction.

There are many more types of friction that can be expressed through individual behaviour. For example; if you see two people arguing, that is a friction too. Without it, there is no growth in human relationship. Just like the seeds.

The Glimpse of Inner Peace in the Speck of Dusts.

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Do you want to know how does Being in the Now feels like? Thanks to cinematography, we can catch the glimpse of how being in the Now looks like. Before that, I want you to understand three things.

  • First, whatever that you see in the movies, that is just a tiny glimpse of eternity. Movies can only narrow down specific aspect of the Now but it can never replace the actually feeling of being in the Now.
  • Second, most of the movies take us away from the Now. It drawn at least two of our senses (sight and hearing) away from being aware of the Now. However, there are movies that carry the message of Being in the Now and I’m going to name one of the movie.
  • Third, you may want to consider that The Now is not entirely time base. And it is not a concept too. The Now is the door to Inner Peace.

If you read the book The Power of Now, then this is easy for you to grasp the essence of being Presence totally in the Now. Slowly it is not difficult for you to taste the glimpse of Inner Peace. However, if you haven’t read this book, then you can mentally understand The Now through certain movies.

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Microscopic of Dusts on the Big Screen.

Do you remember a movie called After Earth? There’s a scene where Kitai (played by Jaden Smith) lied down on the ground and facing his fear. He then became so presence in the moment where his fear dissolved, and his awareness are able to focus on little things like dusts floating in the air. The dusts are so vividly dancing in the air. The color (if I remember correctly) were gloomy and yet the cinematography brought up the moment of peace through Kitai’s breathing.

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And that’s the part I remembered because it gives the glimpse of inner peace. And I could say that because when we are in the Now moments, everything we see, touch, hear, smell and taste become vividly alive. That aliveness is Inner Peace.

Although what we see in the movie may not even accurately portray ‘moment of now’, but intellectually we see the fragment of Inner peace and also the glimpse of living without fear.

Fear Cannot Survive in the Now.

Why are we relating fear with being in the Now? In the After Earth, the reason Ursa cannot sense the presence of General Cypher Raige (played by Will Smith) is because Cypher Raige is being totally presence in the Now where fear in this system is dissolved.

Whether we realise it or not, we are caught in a web of fear; mostly created through our mind. That increases the state of anxiety in us. To reduce the anxiety is to reduce the mental fear. It takes practise to face fear by being in the now. This can be done by shifting our focus to our body and breathe the moment. This can be the most boring activity to our mind but not to our Awareness, certainly not to our body. This is also a form of meditation.

Remember that fear cannot consume you when you are fully presence. Fear cannot kill you when you are at peace with your Self. Anxiety is a by-product of mental fear. Therefore, don’t fight the anxiety. Don’t fight the fear too. Instead be gentle to what you feel and be presence in feeling the fear.

I’ve been practising to be in the Now moment from time to time. All I can say is, fear is not longer a mental torture for me. Instead, fear serve its purpose for my survival in the correct way. I enjoy my moments where I can feel the aliveness in the blades of grass, the dancing dusts in the air and many more.

If you want to experience Aliveness, Joy and Inner Peace, the only way to do it is to be presence in the Now. If you think the glimpse of Inner Peace in After Earth looked stunning and beautiful, wait until you experience the real Inner Peace in you.

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The Beauty of Correct Struggle

There is an aspect of struggle in our individual process. Everyone without exception; has our moments of struggle. This struggle is meant to be transmuted into empowerment; provided we choose the right struggles.

For Projector, an invitation into a right struggle can change his/her entire life. Same goes for Generator, MG, Manifestor and Reflector. When you respond to the right struggle (e.g Generator), this energy will drive you towards your purposes. Other than that, it just going to be an endless struggle of frustration, bitterness, anger and disappointment.

The Channel of Struggle (A Design of Stubbornness) resides in two gates. Gate 38; the gate of a fighter where it has the drives to be the warrior of ‘its way’. When meeting up the gate 28; the risk taker, we are going to have the potential awareness of our purposes and fights. Without one of it, the struggle is incomplete for transmutation and empowerment. And yet, all of us has our chance to transform the struggle.

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The Duality of Struggle. Photo by Rose Osman. Location IKANO

 

This week can be tough because Gate 38 is having its pressure. The Tension we feel in the air is the pressure fighting for purposes. This is also an opportunity to start reflecting whether this struggle that we are facing is the right ones for us. If any of this struggles bring out the not-self theme (anger, bitterness, frustration, disappointment), then be conscious that this struggle is not serving our purposes.

Be kind to yourself, to your body this week and be kind to others. Everyone is fighting their own struggles and mostly through the conditioning of Not-Self. Embrace your struggles, let go the one that doesn’t serve you good and get ready to be showered with transformation in the next few days.

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The Passenger, The Driver and The Vehicle – Who Is Incharge?

It’s a powerful illustration here. We are the passenger of consciousness. What it means here is we have no choice on how Life flow and play through us. All we can do is becoming conscious of each flow. Remember that the good and bad is how our mind labels it. The is a reason for the label and judgement but do not settle for just this or that.

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Carrying The Vehicle? Credit to the artist.

A passenger needs a driver. Our driver is the magnetic monopole that resides in our G Center (sternum area – Gate 2-the direction of Self). Magnetic monopole drives us along our specific geometry; not others. Each geometry will cross path with the others. If we live correctly through strategy and authority, we have the awareness to discern who are the right people that cross path our geometry. The rest is just background and stages.

The car you see is our unconscious body; our vehicle. To live in the 3D dimension is to agree to the law of matter, which the body comes as a package. In 3D dimension, time and direction are part of the law. The body gives us the capacity to move in space within this dimension. So every single decision we made, we are moving from one point to another. Even at the cellular level, every decision we made, the cells, the electricity, the electromagnetic, the fluid in our body moves. Imagine when we choose to be with people we shouldn’t be or choose to be in a wrong environment..the whole effects of the direction itself could result in disaster.

The body (the vehicle) is always ready and are doing its job based on what is given through genetic imprint during our birth. Magnetic monopole knows because there is a force pull it along the geometry. So what causes us all the chaos in life?

The personality, the unconscious mind that creates the Not-Self in us. The mind thinks it can control the life and when it lost the control, it blames, it project faults on others and so on. Human Design original context is written to make us aware of our Not Self and the mind doesn’t like that. The mind doesn’t want us to know that it cannot govern our life and body. The mind is designed to inspire and to be concepts for others. Never to use on ourselves.

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Let go the need to control the body and surrender as a passenger. Instead of trying to be the driver that doesn’t know how or where to drive, be a conscious passenger who learns to enjoy every ride. The magic of surrendering only can be seen when the passenger is relaxed and let go the need to control.

If you desire to change the world, begin with yourself. An awaken manifestor could change the collective from anger to peace. An awaken generator and MG could change the consciousness field into satisfaction. Imagine, would people begin war if they feel satisfied with Life? An awaken projector and reflector could change the entire collective energy especially in guiding the energy. Follow your strategy and authority and see how it can transform your life, spirituality and mind. Let go the need to make decisions with the mind and it will release the burden that our brain feel.

And remember that the mind can do so much (no doubt) but everything is manifesting through our body until we leave this dimension of matter.

So yeah, we stuck in this no-choice body, no-choice genetic rules, no-choice because all are governed by laws of the universe. What do we do?

We surrender.

 

 

The Art of Giving Back

Healing anxiety and depression is going to take time unless you are the chosen one who is going to experience a leap of consciousness. For many people, healing happen gracefully, day to day basis. Just like waiting for a plant to grow. The process seems slow to the mind, but the life force energy can be felt if we pay attention to it. Same goes with healing in our body. Feel it and acknowledge it.

One of the healing steps I teach for Anxiety and Depression is Giving Back. The process is to train your body and mind to connect with others who need your contribution. Instead of becoming the victim of Anxiety and Depression, you become the healer who gives. You heal yourself in the giving process.

Giving back promotes the growth in Life. Giving back allows energy to flow in and out of you in harmony. Whenever you give-back, do it consciously. It can heals you.

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The Art of Waiting

Since this afternoon, I’ve been feeling about something. It feels like an act of doing but there is no pressure of doing it yet. I can feel the energy is there, waiting for the right timing. To me it feels like a seed is ready to show its first leaf but we don’t know when is the exact moment it will emerge from the soil. So we going to have to wait. This feeling is like waiting for a grand surprise by the Universe.

So I’m going to wait and see what is going to show up. And if it’s correct and safe for my body (Splenic Authority), this pressure is going to be manifested into a beautiful work of art and joy, as it already Is.

Good night beautiful souls. Anchor your Awareness through your body and be present now.