What Takes You So Long?

After my little confession in this blog, I have been away for healing process. I am still in the healing process and progress is there. Actually there are lots of progresses. Challenges too. I’m going to share with you one of the biggest progress I’ve made last week; my self-love.

After nearly two months in the battle with something inside me, I have less love towards myself. It didn’t mean I hurt myself with objects and create visible scars. When a person have less self-love, things like anger, frustration and fear can easily take over the person’s life. That was what happened to me. I was no longer a happy person. I could easily felt disturbed by small little things like unexplained energy and pain. Mostly I felt fear. Anger came later on. It was easy for me to throw my anger around. I was ‘ugly’.

For a person who always promotes love but not be able to live with love was torturing. That period of tortured have made me sick. Little that I know, I have invited new sickness like nausea and vomiting and also outgrowth whatever illness I already have in me.

Courage, always in YouSo one day I went to the hospital for the follow up. The Doctor was nice but as usual he was referring to my age. Medically, I was too young for the illness. With the ‘mumble mumble‘ about the age, my ears heard but my mind not. Something inside me caught my attention but it was not clear.

After the visit, I have to wait for the medicines in the pharmacy. While waiting, I asked myself silently;

“What have I done that my body have to take all the pain?”. This question put my emotion at rest. No ego. No guilt. No fear. No anger. Just plain wonder.

Then I heard my inner voice spoke to me;

“Your body knows what to do and how to heal. Trust them and love them. We are all with you”

We? Silence. Beautiful silence.

And I felt tears in my eyes. I knew that voice. It’s a same voice that used to speak to me not long ago. It’s my courage. With tears I smiled at myself again. Touched by the visit, I started to smile again to the world.

Before I go to bed that night, I asked again;

“What takes you so long?”

“We were there, waiting for you to give us some space to growth” 

And so I did. The moment I put fear, anger and some others negative emotions at rest, even for a seconds, love inside me have found its way to take up the space. I’m eternally grateful that I made positive progress in my healing.

Until to-date, I woke up feeling healthier than yesterday. I am still healing. I am still being challenged every day. I know it will not stop until I completely take over it with Love.

Good bye Anger. Good bye Fear…and Hello Love.

We All Have Self-Love

We All Have Self-Love

Advertisements

Stranger’s Affect

Read through this and find your place as a Stranger in people lives.

I was sipping my coffee when a stranger asked, “How can I make impact to the world when I’m just a clerk?”

“What kind of impact are we talking here?” I asked and she paused. Then she shrugged.

“What is world mean to you?” I changed the question to divide her attention into two areas – The best way to change the world and who she could do it as. She took moments before she replied…

“People”

I looked around and she mirrored me. She looked puzzle by my action. I moved my index finger around and said “In that case, this is the world” and I smiled. She looked around again.

“Let say ball represent transformation of love, good thoughts and good deeds. If you cannot pass a big ball to these people in one go, pass a small one. One ball to each person here. When they get the balls from you, they will remember you as a person who passes them a ball. They will remember you because it’s personal. That, in many ways is the most effective way to change the world. A person at one time” I explained.

A Clerk with Files

A Clerk with Files

“But I’m just a clerk. Would people listen to me?” She asked.

“What’s your working hour?” 

“Nine to five” She replied short.

“Do you do filing after five?” 

“No”

“So what are you after five?” I asked her. She paused again.

“When you want to do good deed, do it as YOU. Never do it as a Manager or a Politician or a Millionaire or a Clerk. When you do it in the name of the title, you earn nothing. After all, when you do it as a person who has titles, you are no longer a stranger” I told her softly.

“So being a stranger is important?” She asked.

I nodded. “Which one of these two people will make you feel uplift when they told you that you have shining hair? Your friend or a stranger?”

“A stranger”

“Why?” I asked.

Because if he mentions it, that means he really noticed my hair She said.

“Indeed! I called it Stranger’s Affect. The memorable simple transformation and uplift moments are always from strangers. Small but memorable”

Make a Different 

Talking to the Stranger

Talking to the Stranger

Everyone and anyone can make different and change the world. As long we pass the love, good thoughts, good deeds and positive transformation, we are making different and change the world.

You can change the world and start small by helping people around you to transform. Small things affect the most because it’s personal. Make them realize that they are part of the beautiful world. No one is left behind. Everyone is here because it completes the beauty in the world. Say nicest things to the strangers you meet. Greet them with your happy tone. Love them as part of the beauty world.

Be the stranger and the affects to the world are greater. Most important thing is, strangers transform the world because they just want to share their good thoughts, loves and good deeds.  Simply pure sharing and no recognition involves (which make the good thoughts, loves and good deeds circle faster)

So that’s how it goes. The best way to change the world is one person at the time. When you can’t do it as a family or a friend to everyone, do it as a stranger then.

Right before she left, she smiled and said…“…and today I found my stranger. Thank you”